6:17 PM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
pissed!
my dad kept accusing me of saying "i am downstair", which i remember vividly tat wad i said was," i am coming home."
these 2 quotes seems of least importance, but it's making me crazy. the process of wad happened, i shan't say. because it will just make me burst into flame. so chillchill.
________________________________________________
GOOD DEED
i was on bus 27. the sun is so bright today. & i was like sitting somewhere facing the sun. I AM NOT A SUN PERSON! so the sun is making me crazy. & the bus is driving so slowly. && the screeching sound of the damn bus didnt stop ever since i got on the bus. by the time i reach sk, i was very very irritated.
den something dropped, touched my legs n created a "clang" sound with the floor. i checked my bag n everything. nothing is missing. so i didnt care.
someone who is sitting infront of me alighted. n i decided to check the floor infront to see whether did i really not drop anything. & . . . . . .
i found . . . . . . NOKIA N GAGE. haha. obviously, it's wasnt mine. but the person who is sitting infront of me left already. so i took the phone deciding who to do. i was msging phoebe halfway. so i asked her wad should i do. she said," keep it".
but i feel so uneasy. cos i was thinking if i lost my fone i will hope the person to return to me. den i took the fone home. && the fone rang. i picked it up. told the person i picked it up. n asked him to meet me at compass pt.
n i returned the fone. feel so good abt myself. I AM NICE.
________________________________________________
waiting for the clinic to call me to take the blood test result. but my fone is lousy. i got 3 missed call today. i didnt call back, lack of courage. so i was thinking is any of the number from the clinic. how how how?
i am miss nice.
12:07 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
SICK
go to see doc today. got my 1st blood withdrawal. it wasnt as pain as i tot it might be. the charge of my medicine n blood test cause my mummy 90 bucks. so expensive. my mummy no money le still wan to pay for me. hais. i am such a burden.
i will get the report of my blood on wednesday. till den i will noe whether i am having low blood pressure a not. but i was thinking so wad if i noe i am having low blood pressure? am i gonna be healthy if i noe tat?
anyway, i guess if i noe tat den i wouldnt be giddy anymore or i might not faint on the street ba.
came home after clinic. mummy was telling me wad's happening at home. i love talking to mummy "privately". she's a lil naggy thou. but i dun mind. cos from her mouth i could always learn new n important thing in life.
but i guess korkor didnt feel the same as me. cos after tat mummy was trying to ask korkor to get a job n so on. n he blew his top. he bang the wall with his bare hand a few times, shut the door with a loud bang and scolded diamond to get away from him.
think he is a lil stress out. mum n dad had been asking him to get a job n not laying around in the house doing nothing for days.
i guess mummy is angry as well. she seems to be crying with the constant sniffing of her nose. i dare not look at her. i feel like crying as well. thou i havent got a reason to cry.
was just telling mummy dun care abt korkor. he will find a job when he tink he need one. but i dun tink mummy n daddy is gonna buy my idea.
i am so lost. i dunno whether a not to comfort mummy. she did so much for us, yet she is receiving such undeserving attitude from us. hais. feel so bad.
anyway, just end here. i hope korkor will be back n not runaway from house. hope he is sensible enough ba.
i love my family.
6:24 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
hmm. no school today. but struck at home with PROJECTS n PROJECTS. suppose to meet chunlian n haosong to go book chalet but den i was thinking to finish up the jap project. butbut, i came home n slept and nv even touch jap at all. haiyo. stupid dumbdumb me.
i got the urge to watch movie again. CHARLOTTE'S WEB! den wanted to msg chunlian n asked her whether she still outside. but the burden of projects is weighing me down. hai. i hate PROJECTS.
_______________________________________________
i have heard stories abt how a guy make a girl fall in love in him and when the girl is deeply in love, the guy asked her to find somebody else because of wadever reason they claim to have.
although i nv been thru something like tat but it just make me feel disgusted. if the guy really isnt interested in being in a serious relationship with a girl, y they bother to be so nice toward a girl? n when the girl is totally in love in him, den he will give reasons, such as, " i cant get over her." or " i am a gay". haha.
okok, i am like forgetting the guys point of view. mayb they will say it's just a gentleman behaviour to treat a girl well. n it's the girl that is at fault for thinking the guy like her. hmm.
anyway, it's none of my business. my stand would be never think a guy like eu, unless they admit it. well, mayb by being like tat, the girl can save herself from heartache and tears.
(: GIRL POWER!
CHARLOTTE's WEB ANYONE??
5:52 AM
Monday, January 15, 2007
hmm. i am online now. but borui didnt seems to see me despite me shouting," I AM ONLINE!" in msn. so therefore, i am here to blog 1st. haha.
been missing this few days. cos i am LAZY to blog. so i am going to blog long long today. cos quite a lot of interesting things happened.
i am starting~
FRIDAY
after school went town with nini & steph. nini got her pair of levis. nice nice. make me feel like buying also. argh. no money. any kind soul willing to buy for me? whahaha. nini's godbrother treat us mummum fish n co. yumyum. den went hilton walk walk n went home.
SATURDAY
went to work in the morning. i was prepared to get some ill treatment. but nothing happened. whahaha. finish work at 4 o'clock and went town(i am dressed like crap tat day) to meet phoebe for movie~! yeayea, long long time no watch movie. but cineleisure doesnt have the movie we wanted. so we makan le den went over to dhoby ghaut on bike!
phoebe's bf got motorbike. n phoebe's bf's friend also got. so i lobang his bike there. so fun. but kind of pai seh cos he is some kind of stranger. and conclusion is that daddy's bike is much more comfy than sport bike. i sit until my bum pain tat day.
the movie was at 9.55pm. n we were like hours from tat. so we sat at yakun n coffee-ed. den went over to plaza sing to shop to kill time. we were watching kufung majong 3 at cathay.
den when it was abt time we all rushed back to cathay thinking tat they doesnt have advertisment. && we went to some residential area, thinking it the short cut to the cinema. haha. so funny.
movie ended. funny show, but not 1 tat will leave a deep impression on ur mind. whahaha. it was quite late abt 11 plus. den mummy called and said tat my house here rained bigbig. so all of us decided to eat supper den go home.
den we ate. it's cost 57 plus for 4 of us. expensive. den we went home. phoebe's bf's friend send me home. he was nice! he lend me his jacket as it was freezing tat night. n he was wearing just a piece of shirt. keke.
reaching my home. he asked," r eu cold?" i was like freezing to death. but i said," no la, a little bit only." whahaha. den he said," leg cold only right? body not cold hor?(i got the jacket)" den i said,"yup" haha.
reached home. he asked," never sit sport bike b4 is it?" i said," ya" den he said," next time sit the legs must hold tighttight" haha. i was so pai seh. cos i keep sliding down whenever he stop at traffic light. keke.
day ended.
SUNDAY
went to work at suntec dy. new working environment. nice ppl there as well. only tat a little quiet.
1.30 to 9.30. time passes SLOWLY. i wore their dress which i tot look very retro. haha. i SQUEEZE into size S. whahaha. eu noe? size S. but it was tight. cos whenever i inhale a large amount of air, i feel the tension. whahaha.
den the day ended peacefully.
MONDAY
today we had commskill. n we need to do some assignment. i finished it way before my group members. i was talking to sherhan. miss lau came. i noe she's going to say me. so i said," i finish already" whahaha.
den the 1st person she ask for ans is me. she called," smart crystal, wad is the ans for blah blah blah." haha. den luckily i got it right. den steph was making fun of me by saying i claim to be smart by answering her question. whahaha. i am not SMART.
anyway, i was pondering abt it on the way home. i was thinking if by giving answer way faster den the rest is considered smart. den if i hand in my exam script in 1 min, am i catergorized as genius? bleahs.
ok. day ended with PROJECTS. ahh, i dreaded tis word.
i am not SMART.
5:01 AM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
hmm hmm hmm.
guess wad? i had jap test today which i totally never studied. i got the pink paper. haha. i think japanese are innovative n creative. because the teacher practically avoided us from copying by distributing the different colour paper which has different order of questions. whereas singapore teachers just trust us for not copying. althou i am those who will not be tempted to copy,(haha. i got dignity) but ppl can be desperate sometimes. therefore, i dared not say I NEVER COPIED in my entire life. wait wait, back to track. i am trying to say that i am so going to fail the test.
anyway, after jap lesson we (steph n i) was waiting outside classroom for nini. n outside some french class i suppose. there is this short yet handsome angmoh who i think should be the tutor of the class outside talking to some students. n eu know wad? (ok, eu dunno) he got this sexy voice tat attracted my view to his direction. den i was telling steph to seduce him, i bet he's rich in chinese. it's either he understand or he find it weird for 2 girls staring at him. then while he is still busy communicating with his sexy voice with the group of ppl, he uses the tail of the eyes to peep us which is so completely obvious tat it's isnt a peep. keke. wow, he's hot. (:
okok. i tink i got to rush my 2 factor theorm thing by today n be done with the project. & finish bstats vbus thingy. && account tutorial. wah. wad a heavy day yet i am blogging like nobody business. whahaha.
there's some problem with singnet broadband nowadays. some connection problem. 2 time i am encountering in the week. bad bad sign.
i am going to have my blogskin changed soon.
9:57 PM
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
besley is pressing me for the PERCEPTION. haha. i am like some author being nagged n pressing up to the nose for the work which is due tml. haha. as if i am so talented. okie. but i can proudly say," I AM DONE WITH PERCEPTION." whahaha.
i am so so so broke. no money. everytime i no money i will felt as if there is everything in the world i NEEDED to buy. but whenever i got money i felt as if i got not enough money to buy everything and left buying things i dun need and still leaving myself with everything in the whole world to buy yet penniless. that's very very sad.
motivated. i am motivated to find myself a rich n charming bf. however, that's hard. cos i am not living in the world of drama. i am living in reality. oh. tat's bad. mayb i should be motivated to be like the CEO of mount faber leisure group. i am sure she's earning big bucks. she sure is inspirable. ok. anyway i am MOTIVATED.
THE JEWEL BOX. nice name yea? before today, i am yet to know wad a thing it is. but i have find out that it's a damn romantic n beautiful place in SINGAPORE~! eu noe wad? it's in SINGAPORE. it's in mount faber which i had never been to in my entire life in singapore. haha. just from the pictures ms teh showed, i am so attracted to go. however, i think it's like a lover-place. cos it's soooo ROMANTIC. i will get my next rich n charming bf to bring me there. whahaha.
oppsy. i forget about something. today i am happy happy. got back bstats results. got a happy n satisfied grade. the only good grade i had in the entire mid sem. haha. i guess i doesnt hate maths tat much after all.
i got nominated in some open house thingy. it's on next saturday. oh my god, 1st thing came to my mind, boss gonna get mad again. anyway, i had no choice. who ask i so suay.
note to self:
- got to finish herzburg 2 factor theorm thingy by friday. (besley spoilt my happy mood by telling me that. whahaha)
- finish up puzzle n give it back to him. (cut off any connection between me n him)
- wash up all the clothes i had left in the washroom by tml if not mummy will start nagging again.
- save up money for NEXT YEAR oversea thingy.
i get too engross when i am watching tv series.
6:09 AM
Sunday, January 7, 2007
birthdays birthdays n birthdays!hmm. now i realised i got so many friends who have birthdays in the beginning of the year. 1st was steph, 2nd borui, 3rd peishan, 4th huini, 5th jackson, 6th chunlian. n it's like only 2 months after 2oo6 left. haha. meaning all will be able to go club n smoke n drink legally. && i have like 6 mths more to be legal. tat's sad.
anyway, today i work at heeren dy n is. they gave me a gown to wear which i think make me looked fat. i am fat thou. the people there were nice. seniors were friendly, unlike those i had heard from other part timer. they r so funny. because 1 of the girls can't find a hanger, den the senior said," if i can find den eu must be naked hor." den senior found. den they said," dun wan naked nvm, but must *censored*" haha. dun tell eu all wad they say. they r soso cute. fun day. =)
went to transfer money to my boss. he is like so rude. my mum was kind enough to buy a policy from him yet he treat me liddat.
ok. wad happen was:
sat i didnt went to work. i overslept due to friday late night out. i msged him at 12.30 when i am suppose to reached office at 12. (ok. it's was my fault.) den i asked, could he msged me his acc no. so tat i could transfer him my mum policy premium back to him. den he reply just his acc no. (ok, tat's nothing big deal)
den today, i asked him how much must i transfer over. once again, he just replied the amount. (ok. mayb i am being paranoid) den after i transferred the money. i msged him to confirm. && he DIDNT REPLY. (ok. i tink he is mad at me for not going to work). but who cares anyway. i tried to wake up but i was too tired. so cant blame me. bleahs.
after work, i went to g2ooo. they r having sales. n because tml i am having presentation i bought myself a pants. it's cheap. haha. oh ya. speaking abt presentation, i am yet to start on my presentation. oh mymy. . my project! i am yet to finish also. oh god, give me a pair of spare hands please!
thou i got lots to blog abt. i think i got to run. besley is so gonna kill me if i dun give him the project. haha.
as if i am gonna contact eu.
5:15 AM
Saturday, January 6, 2007
THIS IS CUTE! have eu tried to fixed my heart?
2:51 AM
WRONG DECISION
beginning of the year, yet i am already going thru it in hell. i had to regret what i did last year. n with my wrong decision n choice, i am having my bao ying. i seldom regret. now i am regretting.
mummy made me realised the wrong decision i made, which i was trying so hard to hide it deep inside of me. n i am comforting myself that it's just an experience to differentiate good n bad bf. but this is such a lousy reason tat even myself isnt falling for it.
i really is going the hard way to find the gauge of good n bad bf. i shouldnt have given eu up. i shouldnt met him. i shouldnt be stupid. i shouldnt, i shouldnt n i shouldnt. wad if i never give eu up. wad if i never meet him. wad if i am not so stupid. all this came too late for me to realise tat i am bloody STUPID.
now tat eu r blissfully happy with the companionship of some other girl. i truthfully wish the best of everything for eu. please forget the promises we once has. cos i just wan to let everything go. 3 years from then, punggol end and meet up. i dunno whether will eu see this. but anyway, i made my mind. i wouldnt turn up. mayb eu already forgotten. haha. wad a fool of me to think that eu will remember.i just took everything for granted n now i am paying for the price. i once had the chance the choice but i traded it with freedom which turned out to be worse.
for him, eu bloody wan everything back, n i will bloody give eu everything back. so eu just get your ass out of my life. eu said eu r going to jail right? GO! i hope eu ENJOYED the life inside. n eu expect me to treat eu better just freaking because eu r going jail?! wad the F***. even a dog knows that when it did something wrong, it doesnt deserve a treat. n now eu r asking for me to treat eu better when eu violate the law?! have some common sense please. LESSONS LEARNT:
NEVER LET OPPORTUNITY SLIP PASS YOU;
NEVER REGRET
NEVER FALL IN LOVE AGAIN
LOVE AINT BEAUTIFUL
SOME GUYS R JERKS!
FREEDOM IS NOTHING
FREEDOM IS EVERYTHING
THINGS FOR GUYS TO KNOW:
NEVER MAKE A GIRL HATE YOU
NEVER BE A BASTARD
NEVER LET ME GO (IT'S TOO LATE)
love aint beautiful.
i hate you.