SICK

go to see doc today. got my 1st blood withdrawal. it wasnt as pain as i tot it might be. the charge of my medicine n blood test cause my mummy 90 bucks. so expensive. my mummy no money le still wan to pay for me. hais. i am such a burden.

i will get the report of my blood on wednesday. till den i will noe whether i am having low blood pressure a not. but i was thinking so wad if i noe i am having low blood pressure? am i gonna be healthy if i noe tat?

anyway, i guess if i noe tat den i wouldnt be giddy anymore or i might not faint on the street ba.

came home after clinic. mummy was telling me wad's happening at home. i love talking to mummy "privately". she's a lil naggy thou. but i dun mind. cos from her mouth i could always learn new n important thing in life.

but i guess korkor didnt feel the same as me. cos after tat mummy was trying to ask korkor to get a job n so on. n he blew his top. he bang the wall with his bare hand a few times, shut the door with a loud bang and scolded diamond to get away from him.

think he is a lil stress out. mum n dad had been asking him to get a job n not laying around in the house doing nothing for days.

i guess mummy is angry as well. she seems to be crying with the constant sniffing of her nose. i dare not look at her. i feel like crying as well. thou i havent got a reason to cry.

was just telling mummy dun care abt korkor. he will find a job when he tink he need one. but i dun tink mummy n daddy is gonna buy my idea.

i am so lost. i dunno whether a not to comfort mummy. she did so much for us, yet she is receiving such undeserving attitude from us. hais. feel so bad.

anyway, just end here. i hope korkor will be back n not runaway from house. hope he is sensible enough ba.

i love my family.