beginning of the year, yet i am already going thru it in hell. i had to regret what i did last year. n with my wrong decision n choice, i am having my bao ying. i seldom regret. now i am regretting.

mummy made me realised the wrong decision i made, which i was trying so hard to hide it deep inside of me. n i am comforting myself that it's just an experience to differentiate good n bad bf. but this is such a lousy reason tat even myself isnt falling for it.

i really is going the hard way to find the gauge of good n bad bf. i shouldnt have given eu up. i shouldnt met him. i shouldnt be stupid. i shouldnt, i shouldnt n i shouldnt. wad if i never give eu up. wad if i never meet him. wad if i am not so stupid. all this came too late for me to realise tat i am bloody STUPID.

now tat eu r blissfully happy with the companionship of some other girl. i truthfully wish the best of everything for eu. please forget the promises we once has. cos i just wan to let everything go. 3 years from then, punggol end and meet up. i dunno whether will eu see this. but anyway, i made my mind. i wouldnt turn up. mayb eu already forgotten. haha. wad a fool of me to think that eu will remember.

i just took everything for granted n now i am paying for the price. i once had the chance the choice but i traded it with freedom which turned out to be worse.

for him, eu bloody wan everything back, n i will bloody give eu everything back. so eu just get your ass out of my life. eu said eu r going to jail right? GO! i hope eu ENJOYED the life inside. n eu expect me to treat eu better just freaking because eu r going jail?! wad the F***. even a dog knows that when it did something wrong, it doesnt deserve a treat. n now eu r asking for me to treat eu better when eu violate the law?! have some common sense please.