longlong time ever since i blog? it's only been days. whahaha.

today isnt a day for me! just be tactful abt my words. so shall not elaborate any further. but i seriously think he keep 'eating' me. & i really hate him already. but having the character of mine, i will still smile & pretend everything is normal when i see him. hate my character, COWARD!

today went out with kor. he really become chatty-er. but kind of good. at least he show his feeling. & i get to noe more about him. & he doesnt mind being gay with GJ. whahaha. funnyfunny.

been working for the last few days. hmm. but counted the pay, it's like less than 100 bucks. haha. pathetic sia. my coach wristlet is rotting by the time i save enough money. sadsad. whahaha.

i am super penniless. really broke. ok. let me tell everyone about my property i am having now so tat no robbers will come & rob me. my bank is left with 6 bucks. & i have only 5 bucks left. & as everyone knows, minimum withdrawal for dbs is 20 bucks. so it's impossible to get the 6 bucks out. so total property is 5 bucks. haha. i am gonna survive in singapore with 5 bucks man!

yesterday after work went gaigai with huini, jocelyn & keanyen. keanyen bought nini adidas watch. aww. so nice right. (: den went shopping at bugis. jocelyn bought skirt & tshirts. because i am penniless so i dint buy anything. sadsad.

today kor was asking me how come my friends buying clothes & stuffs yet i not buying one. den i was like no money how to buy? haha. i am really super broke. ):

ni hen ai ta- fir. super nice song!

SUPER DUPER BORING!

hmm. bored bored bored. it's 11.44 pm yet i am saying i'm boring. haha. lame me. i ate lots of fattening stuffs today, such as kfc & bak kua. & it's causing my throat to be sore. yet, i am having craving for roti prata & cai tao kway(carrot cake). hmm. am i trying to gain 10 kg in 1 go?!

kfc compass point service isnt good. today went there with daddy & mummy. ok. fast food should be fast. & mayb their service isnt suppose to be good anyway. however, it's not fast. the girl who was serving me, shidah, was totally taking her own sweet time. & she's giving me a wad-u-wan look. & while the other counter staff was telling their customers tat they will send them their remaining food, she asked me to go back for the bandito pockette. hmm. i am so pissed by her & started complaining to my parents. arghh. but anyway, i was went back & get the food myself & thank her with a smile. ok. i am coward. i dared to talk behind & not straight in her face.

oh ya, i forgotten. when i went back for my bandito pockette she was serving a guy. but she was smiling to the guy. i tink she depise girls. hahaha. am i like being a lil too complain queen?

cant help it. i dun like bad service. x) we're RETAIL MANAGEMENT ppl. so we have to save singapore from BAD SERVICE. crapping once again.

roti prata, cai tao kway!!

sentosa pics. grabbed from nini's blog.

hmm. i need to pick my words very carefully when writing blog. because i will never noe who's watching me. although i am quite truthful about wad i wrote, but i doesnt wan to hurt anyone unintentionally. TRUTH USUALLY HURTS.

i read from someone blog," there's is always things tat shouldnt be post on blog. & all this things will be kept in ourselves or in another diary of our own." hmm. it's true. certain things eu shouldnt be posting online. so i shall just put in my diary. (:

this reminds me of wad mr da silva once said during lecture," blog is something tat is waste of time" hmm. with some serious thought, it true yet not true. true is because it might get you into deep shit. not true is because certain friends get to be involve in ur life no matter how far they r away from you.

hmm. i am being so paranoid. i always thought nobody will read my blog just like me not really interested in others blog. haha. ok. not that true. i am interested in vickii,nini & stephanie blog. but it really scares me at the thought tat i might be offending certain ppl at the point of moment when i blog. though every emotions then is totally forgotten by me.

ok. anyway tat's wad i feel now. (:

i dreamt of someone who are so far away from me.

my legs are breaking! ask me y?? because stephh & i ran all the way after work just to catch my stupid train which is 2 min away. luckily, i caught the train. if not have to take cab which is very stupid. cos i only earn peanuts. (: the fact that i am running like a crazy woman in the mid of orchard road make me embarrassed. shh. dun tell anybody i did tat ok? whahaha.

yesterday work was fun yet tiring. fun because i got to learn new stuffs & see new ppl. tiring because it was a long long day. hmm. something funny, i am suppose to de-bone the fish. yet i didnt took out the fish bone. something amazing, i mastered how to use the serving gear. so proud of myself.

today i am still working. but this time round is different because nobody is accompanying me. nini is working at 2, i'm at 5. so got to figure everything out by myself. good luck to me.

hmm. y am i waking up so early everyday? i got a fixed time tat i will wake up. but it's not a good thing. because no matter how late i turn in, i will end up waking up early. resulting in tiredness. i wasnt like tat in the past. hmm. so strange.

haha. there's a horsemon in pokemon.

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

And the oscar goes to... you! You're all about overreacting and just plain acting. You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance. And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times... Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little. (But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

THERE"S A BIG FAT LIZARD!
my god, the freaking lizard nearly gave me a heart attack. my heart is still pounding like nobody business now. i dont know where it went. so i am like still very paranoid with every single movement in the room. i kept thinking the lizard is there, thERE, THERE! i screamed. & my mummy just said," it's just a lizard." ok, only ppl who r really scare of them will noe my feelings. y does lizards even existed??!!

i ate lots of bak kua today. hmm. time for some reflection. i will gain weight liddat. so i decided not to eat my dinner to reduce some calories. but mummy is cooking marcoroni( dunno how to spell la, the u-shaped pasta with a hole in the middle). hmm. i have to have some determination. (:

lalala!

sentosa today! i aint any darker. becos i put tons of sunscreen! whahaha. fun fun. with steph, nini, my kor and my kor's friend, GJ. pictures up soon. (:

my throat is itchy itchy. haha. cant scratch thou. tink is because i steal my mummy's tibit eat. eat too much le. whahaha.

hmm. i am tired. so dun write so much today. whahaha.

strike 12, cinderalla is back to reality.
strike 12, wound heals, chance given.
& you r no longer special to me, just like cinderalla.

mosquitoes love me! i've got lots of bumps of love bites all over my body. i can understand y they love me, but i am traditional and conservative eu see. so i should tell them not to show their love in such bold manner. haha. i am crapping again. but i really didnt see y they should love sucking my blood cos i've been restricting the amount of sugar a day. so my blood shouldnt be that sweet. & out of the 5 family members i have, they just seems to like my blood the most. hmm.

anyway, was super bored yesterday. so i went to read all my testimonial from the past. i am only 1/4 through the total 280 testimonials i've got. but the summary of wad i have read:

ipod spoilt. today, my ipod decided to be a diver. so it dive into a puddle of water in the basin. haha. so now a lil sot sot. but still can listen. so dun tink exactly, entirely spoilt. (:

went to giant megamart today. it's crowded! i dun like crowed places. according to mummy," singaporeans is liddat one, so mountain turtle." den i said," ya lor, like you n papa liddat lo." whahaha. i so mean. grins-

enjoyed the day going out with mummy&daddy. dun understand y my brothers dun wan follow us. sunday is family day nei! yet they both disappear until dunno where. keke.

wei se me ai shang ni de ren, shi wo.
wei se me yi xiang qing yuan de ren, hui nan guo.
wei se me dui ni she bu de, jiuuuuu shi wo!
taken from gary cao ge- chen mo wan ju.

worked hilton yesterday. happy happy. earn 36 bucks. it's little yet i am happy. but it's tiring. the metal tray for cocktail really isnt for ppl to carry de. very very heavy. my hand nearly break. haha. wedding dinner yesterday night. hmm. i suddenly felt like getting married soon. ahh. someone please love me so tat we can get married! haha.

before hilton, i worked at aia office. n guess wad? my boss say gonna increase my pay! current pay: 7bucks per hour. lalala. better increase till 10 bucks. even better if he's paying me 20 bucks! haha. as if tat will happen. (:

i cant buy clothes currently. cos i still owe my insurance money. so sad. no money to buy my pull&bear thingy. no money buy anything. ;(

sentosa i am coming on tuesday!

falala!

i am offically broke.
bank is empty.
wallet left with a penny.

hmm. didnt noe tat sending messages to taiwan there's additional charges. now i am worrying tat my phone bills will exceed. den my mummy will scold me upside down. die. haha.

today went orchard with vickii n her cousin, yvonne. yvonne is so cute. as cute as enqi. haha. both small little girl. & we took like 3 times of neoprints in one day. haha. i cant believe it. waiting for vickii to upload. (:

bought a tube from pull&bear. i tink my cardigan is not selling there anymore. sad. y doesnt clothes wait for me? :(

break broke broken...

disfigured!

did i not mention tat i was disfigured?! haha. ok. i am exaggerating. my right thigh was disfigured. burnt and now chao tar. haha. the smart me burnt my thigh with the exhaust pipe of brendon's bike. hmm. interesting experience. seeing ur skin seperate from ur meat. turning from red to black. ahha. did i forget to mention it hurts?! it seriously hurts. haha.

i am caught in the middle of wearing pants to cover my ugly thigh and wearing skirts n shorts so as not to worsen the burnt. hmm.

oh ya. vickii if eu see this. could eu kindly update me with ur life? haha. r eu like going out with someone n nv tell me? haha. eu noe i cant tag ur tagboard. whahaha. imissyou. (:

hmm. i feel like going the uncle ringo or something. the amusement park at hougang. i also feel like going sentosa and wlid wlid wet. anyone interested?? haha. i am very free my dear friends!

2nd blog of the day.

YEAH!

results out. n surprisely, unexpectedly i passed all my subjects. haha. so so so so happy. call me smart! whahaha. my GPA is 2.63. little but i am just as happy. because i PASSED everything.

i am a tourist for the past few days.

haha. re-visiting singapore attractions. hmm. not a bad idea. it's been so convenient to go to places that eu never tot of going with a transport. so nini, raymond, brendon and me went around singapore touring.

let's recap.

life is fragile.

story #1:
a distant relative of mine who made his gf pregnant. due to the girl's mother objection, she went for abortion despite the fact that she is already 5 months pregnant. n the abortion nearly cause the girl's life.

story #2:
my papa's friend died of heart attack last week. he's only 1 year older than my daddy.

story#3:
my mama's friend's mother-in-law died. n we attended her funeral just now.

conclusion of the day:
so many ppl dying everyday. be it expected or not expected. life is fragile. so cherish every single moment. (:

hmm. yesterday went out with nini again. drove past changi airport runway. the one which i only seen on television. saw planes taking off. aww. so "wow". i was like thinking to myself. "i will be on the airplane soon. wait for me airplane!" (i am gonna be an air stewardess 1 day) dramatic me again. that place is really beautiful, enchanting, magestic, n every-nice-words-to-describe.

my goal: air stewardess. (:

i finally got out of house yesterday. lalala. went to work n out to play. yeah! met phoebe after work n shop around chinatown, clarke quay and vivocity. added a plenty of new wishes. oh mymy, money please come n fufill my lil wishes. haha.

new wishes:

*`pull n bear black/white shorts

*`pull n bear khaki skirt

*`pull n bear black cardigan

*`forever 21 halter neck top

*` topshop princess sleeve white/purple shirt

hmm. i seriously need to get a job. so my wishes could all come true. yet, i have to wait for the result! yes, result! so i get to know whether i got any supp paper. so that i will study for it. my god. how cruel could that be?

ok. after catchin' up with phoebe. went over to cathay cineplex to meet huini. watch 300. nice show actually. the king were wise n courageous, i thought. it's just the time of the show(12am) tat kind of make the show seems sleepy. haha. oh, there's nudity. it's m18 you see. so i bet it will satifised all guys desires. as in, fighting n woman. whahaha.

oh, before the movie there is like 3 hours in between. n there is absolutely nothing the 4 of us (including huini, huini's bf n huini's bf's friend) could do. so i gave a casual remark of going mount faber. haha. n we really went there! ok. the place was really nice with beautiful scenery. ahh. too bad, i aint got a bf.

den after the movie, went chong pang mum mum nasi lemak. den went home. didnt know they were going jb fill fuel. if i know, i will take cab home myself. so pai seh. cos it's like going from woodlands to sengkang den they will be travelling back to woodlands. hmm. really very pai seh. but i only realise that when we were reaching punggol. sorry.

day ended happily. (:

p.s to nini: cheer up. have faith in him yea? instead of worrying about the future, you should try to enjoy wad is infront of you right now. dun forget, there's me to love you. (:

aww. mount faber is beautiful.

was going thru my foto album just now. n i found this photo. i am like so act cute. haha. hope nobody will vomit after seeing this. gees.

old cabinet.

gifts from once best friends, now strangers.
presents from once suitors and lovers, now unknown faces.
flowers that were once fresh, now wilted.
soft toys that were once new, now dusty and defiled.
cards that were once filled with blessing, now are just words.

memories unleashed by all the gifts from the past.
old cabinet stores all the memories that are once forgotten.
emotions can hardly be express by words.

all of them. i still remember.
all of you. i still thank you.
all of us. will still feel the world revolving.

so the old cabinet still remain.
awaiting for my courage.
courage to reveal all the things from the past.
all the people from the past.
all that i have lost and gain.

hmm. in simple term, i open my cabinet that is filled with my presents from all occasions ever since primary school. haha. n i found out that cards are really good presents for me. cos i keep every single of them. i read through years later. i found out that i am really being loved by my friends then. however, human nature, we always didnt feel loved until we loses sight of it. (:

my old cabinet is still as messy as ever.

nails painted;
blogskin changed;
breakfast eaten;

she's lovable. she needs to be loved. she wanted to be love. she love to be love.

my blog is full of love.