LOL.
a very funny thing.
ICECREAMCHEF viewed me on friendster.
how did they find me on friendster?
question marks?????

but they are very yummy!
stephh, jianhai and me wanted to go today.
but it's either i sway or he sway.
his dad need to use car.
so cant go.
:(

ok.
just now, jianhai drop me at a ulu ulu bus-stop.
cos he need to return his dad's car and send stephh home.
the cars there is driving very fast lah.
can feel the vbroom vbroom.
den the sand & dust flying all over.

that's not the point.
the point is that bus stop damn scary.
being a scary cat,
i get freak out with the smallest movement.

& worst still,
i saw bus 27 left right before my eyes.
it's either my night blindness
or the bus no light.

then, i start to panick.
luckily, the next bus came soon after.
xp

stupid crystal!

ICECREAMCHEF was yummy yummy!
i ate nutella delight plus brownie.
yummy!
steph ate chocminthersey plus oreo.
yummy too!
nini ate nutella delight plus kinderbueno.
yummy three!!

yumyumyum.
i going back for sure.
haha.

oh a very paiseh thing.
i said i want to treat nini eat.
but end up i saw her pay and i forget to pay for her.
damn retarded of me.

forget-me-not
i dreamt of you, you &you.
but please dont let it be dejavu! (:

sad!! ):
no ice cream chef today.
i'm so looking forward for icecreamchef de ne.
anyone want bring me there?
HAHAHA!

sunday was a home-ly day.
finally i get to catch some afternoon nap.
slept till 3pm.
contented!

i've finish my part of retail prac.
like so relieved.
phew!

i'm confused.
whywhywhywhywhywhy?

edited*
leo guys are romantic? is it true? LOL.
maybe i should find a leo bf!

your face seems so not you.

ICE CREAM CHEF tml!
jianhai treat.
haha. who ask he wan bet with me.
but THANKS ANYWAY.
stephh coming along too.

ask me what is ICE CREAM CHEF?
i also dont know.
saw nini's blog,
then saw this,
she make it sound super yummy.
so i'm out to try!! LOL
http://icecreamchefs.blogspot.com/

retail practical project.
hmmm.

someone to say,"iloveyou"
someone to give cuddles, hugs.
someone..
ineedthatsomeone.

tadah..
finance project DOWN!
next up, retail prac report.
next next up, exams!

went KKH with stephh and her mum.
visit stephh's little cousin.
ask me why i went?
cos stephh and i going out after that.
the visitation made me realise,
how innocent children can be.

bused down to town.
meet rui, jackson & shaun.
far-east for chicken rice.
walked around.
looked at girls.
unfortunately, no handsome guys.

walked over to cine.
buy tickets for invisible target.
NICE show.
HANDSOME GUYS.
felt sympathetic for nicholas tse.
he did all those dangerous strunts.
but why no EDISON?
hahaha.

kopitiam-ed.
bused home.
realise, my house is so not accessible to town.
no straight bus.
only NR6 or train.

it's complicated.
idontunderstandwhyeither.

the scars,
i hate seeing those scars.
i hate what they remind me of.

projects is really killing me!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

i really hate all these shit!
i slept at 4 am last night.
opps sorry. it's MORNING.
doing finance project.
then, i woke up at 10.15.
late for socio MOCKTEST.
so i cleverly clear leave,
when there's MOCKTEST.
call me a GENIUS please.

now, need to go school to do PROJECTS!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

let me rantrantrant.
if not i'm going crazy.

there's absolutely no free time.
it's friday u know.
we are still working like cows.
my weekend is not spared too.

ok.
thinking that i'm not contributing much to my projects.
i shouldnt be ranting,
when all those superwomen in my group,
who are working twice as much as me,
isnt complaining the least bit.

i'm guilty.
but i really tried to help.
HMMM...

shut!
sorry to bored everyone with this.
x(

starving myself;
i'm growing too much fats recently.

went ROM with stephhy today.
but lesbian isnt accepted by the law yet!


LOL.



JUST JOKING!
(albert dun angry ok?)


went to phoebe & fabian's ROM.
so sweet!!
there's this poster that says,
"MARRIAGE, CHERISH THE BOND!"
hahaha.

phoebe is prettypretty!
aww. i also want get married.
hahaha.
masami got the flowers.
she'll be next!
LOL.

emoemoemo!
shooshooshoo!
i'mhappy;
no more emoemoemo!

((:

nobodyunderstands.
it`stheonlywaytobeconnected

1 project down!
yesh!!
we are 15 minutes late at submitting.
5 marks gone just liddat.
arghh. so unfair.

went to tampines mall isetan.
& i saw Guess? sling bag.
sooooo nice. white colour.
guess how much it is?
$169.

den this morning i saw,
a girl wearing betula slippers.
damn nice also.

den stephh and jianhai say wan go genting.
i also want to go.

the next question is,
money, WHERE ARE YOU?!

hahaha.

myheart? TALK TO ME!

Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you sayI just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get, I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone



i realise i hate my hair!
totally disgusting.
i might lose control & snap my hair away.
hahaha.
money please make your way to my pocket.
i'll make sure my pocket is big enough for you.
so that i can do something to my disgusting hair!
perm? rebond? coloured? black?

boohoo!

crystal doesnt watch horror.
yet, there's like 2 nice horror on the screen.
Vacancy & Alone.
but i shant pay and get myself a heart attack.
(:

PORJECTS!
(kenneth made this word up,
when i said "PROJECTS" is a taboo.)
gonna do porjects with steph.
everyone else in my group is busy.
hmm.
no morale to do porjects.
meeting her at 3,
now 2.15 & i'm not prepared to leave yet.
PORJECTS sucks!

i've an infection on my left eye.
(i know my left and right. LOL)
but i'm still going to wear contact lens.
am i trying to blind myself?
i'm blinding myself... NOT.
cos my spectacles spoilt,
cant wear outside. (:

was talking about taking bike/car license tat day.
den i realise,
it's kind of hard for me to pass.
my left & right is not that good.
so what if the tester say," left turn."
then i went right?
the result: fail!

i've got a pair of itchy hands!
chop off my hands.

i'm so insignificant!

masami, phoebe & me! (my lovely big sisters)

((:

life's totally unpredictable!
my uncle committed suicide,
jumped off a building,
leaving his wife, 3 sons and a little grandson.
without a note,
without a word.

heard from my mum,
burst out in tears.
how can someone be so desperate,
so cruel,
to leave everything behind?
what drove him in doing such things?

mum cried.

during socio class,
our teacher teaches us to view the world with socio theories.
& mayb this is a case of social stratification.
hmm.
social class.
poverty.
my uncle might be desperate for money.
my mum said he might owe people a huge sum of money.

hai.
wad can i say?

)`:
every problem has a solution to it.
dont give up in searching.
life might seems totally meaningless.
but being human,
i guess emotions/feelings just keep us going on.
once u give up,
means u give up having ur emotions, ur feelings.
what differences are you from an animal then?

stupid dumb dumb crystal is on strike again.

saw the big freaking wall.
yet, she thought she is some big shot superwoman.
& dash at top speed.
throwing herself on the wall.
when flesh meets bricks,
which one win?

totally retarded.





AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!








whydidinotdeleteeverything?
whydidiitchyhandmsgyouagain?
whydidihavetohearthisfromyou?

myheartisallalongwithme?

i dont know whether i should be proud or ashamed of myself.
i scolded a little boy.
why?

the story goes like that:
i was walking with stephh to her house,
for project as usual.
& i saw 2 little boys "playing" with a cat.
then, the boy grab the poor cat by the stomach with 1 hand,
& place it on a pole(those pole to stop bicycle to cross over),
& the poor cat fell from there
because the circumference of the pole is obviously not enough for the cat to even stand.

then, i dont know what came over me.
i just walk over.
& i asked," why did you throw the cat?"
(his friend run away already)
then, he said in a arrogant manner,
"i never throw, i was just playing with the cat."
i said,
"you never throw? then, why you put the cat on the pole?"
he said,
"i was playing with it."
i said,
"cant you see the cat is scare of you when you even tried to carry it?"
he said,
"i never throw it."
(gonna cry soon.)
then stephh ask me to go.

the boy is obviously trying to disturb the poor cat lah.
he was wearing a glove on 1 of the hand.
so angry can.
but if it was the old me,
i would have walk away.
i guess having little diamond made me a animal lover?
btw, i am scare of cats.
haha!


this letter is specially dedicated to stephsteph.

Dear stephh,

thanks my dear girl.
you had been a lovely friend.
a friend who i can confide in,
a friend that hear me rant bout things tat is obviously of no significance to you,
a friend that care, felt sad because i'm sad.

you've been a good listening ear.
sorry about sighing constantly,
showing the sad face, unintentionally thou.
i've been trying to hide it all inside.
but sometimes, it's just hard.
especially when everything let you down.

my dear girl, you are nice, kind and lovely.
i'm glad that we're friends.

projects are getting hard on us.
let's try to pass everything together.
dont stress ourselves too much yea?

thanks once again, sweet.

Love Crystal.


i'm good at hiding myself in the past,
but i think i'm losing the trick in doing that.
i showed all my feelings.
anger, compassion, gratitude, misery,
& the feeling of missing you.
good or bad?

tuesday is a BAD day.
i dont usually go for morning lecture on tues.
but when im seriousing repenting on how i should drag myself out of the bed,
& soaking myself wet with ice cold water,
& daddy is waiting in the living room for me,
& finally i'm done with dressing up.

jianhai broke the news to me via SMS,
"marketing research lecture will be postphone as mr steven on urgent leave.
please do not attend the lecture today."
(for your information, jianhai is the MONITOR of our class.)

if my life is a drama,
then, you will start hearing the thunders
& start seeing the lightnings.
HAHAHA!

tadah..
& here i am blogging in the early beautiful morning.

off for my prata!

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me.

i felt the STRESS already.
never been so stress out in my life.
deadline for projects is super near can.
& our push cart must be up by thursday.
&& i'm totally drained.

arghh.

yet, my mind didnt seems to be drifted very far.
some people work like cow,
some people shop like hell,
some people drink till drop,
just to get out of stress & everything tat's bothering them.
but i dun see how keeping myself busy is doing any help.
FREAK!

today borui told me something,
he said his friend mother just pass away.
& his friend is very sad.
i nearly cry after hearing him said the story.
he concluded that there is people that's worst than me.
& he said be strong.

den i realise,
somehow he's a mature person,
when he's telling me those thing.
hmm.

there's tons of things you could be grieving at.
only the level of significance is different.

jianhai say he can intro his cousin to me!
#1- drives a integra.
#2- rich.
#3- good-looking (nv seen him b4 thou)
#4- 21 years old.
#5- dont smoke.
LOL.
stephh says he's eligable.
but it's so awkward la.
u see, if ur cousin come telling you.
"eh, there's a girl that want a boyfriend desperately,
& u are just her type. u want to know her?"
it's like so turn-off can.
hahaha!

maybe i should just wait for fate to knock on my door.


life`s isnt good.
i'm not killing myself thou.
i'm too coward to even scare myself too death.
LMAO.

crystalsdaily is really crystalsdaily.
i have been updating my blog every single day.
& sometimes twice per day.
wah. i'm really super free, & no life.
xp

dint went to fang's chalet last night.
too lazy to even step out of my house.
phoebe ask me go out.
but i was still too lazy.
too comfortable staying in my own comfort zone.

going stephhy's to do projects.
but i dunno wad time i need to be there.
hahaha!
is it 2??

deleted the number in the contact list,
may crystal happily live her own life!

no more, finally!

((:
thanks phoebe.
the words in ur blog is really encouraging.
& the mcdonald & kfc thingy was HILARIOUS!
hahaha!

stephh accompany me thru the night yesterday,
thanks love.
phoebe, fabian, aboy & uncle yeong came.
talked awhile & due to no extra helmet,
they cant send us home.
so left for home.
cabbed home with stephh, leslie & edwin.

going fang's chalet later.
but i think should be go awhile,
talk to my beloved fangfang,
give her present,
socialise a bit.
den go before there's no more bus.

cos the next day,
need to meet for projects.
ahhh! burn my sunday.
but it's ok,
cos i will be staying over at stephhy's.
& got to see her for the whole day.
muacks! xp

someone said i'm materalistic in the recruiting part time boyfriend post.
haha.
i stress again, that post was
JUST-FOR-LAUGH.
thou, i'm seriously looking for bf.


would it be different?
i wonder..

tadah~

i'm at stephhy's house.
there's a industrial talk at 3-5pm.
burn my friday only.
haha.
cos my friday is until 1pm usually.
but no choice have to go.

projects projects projects.
got tons of project dueing soon.
stress!!

opps. i forgot to mention.
i failed my market research mid sem.
i got 20/50.
sucks.
i dun wan to repeat market research.
cos i seriously hate the surveys part.
LOL.
but failing it got me a drink for free.
STEPH IS GOING TO TREAT!
she got the highest for MR.
nini, claim from her. ((:

what else can i say?

tried to upload some pictures of desaru trip,
but failed.
lazy to try again. (:

When We Die- bowling for soup

Well, I know that it's early
And it's too hard to think
And the broken empty bottles
Are reminder in the sink
But I thought that I should tell you
If it's not to late to say
I could put back all the pieces,
They just might not fit the same

Nothing's worth losing
Especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Well, I know it's been years now,
And I don't look the same
And the hopes and dreams you had for me
You thought went down the drain.
And the room feels so empty
where my pictures used to be
And I can't say that I blame you,
But you can't blame me

Come over
Come over
Cause I gotta know,
If I am doing this all on my own

How can I show you if you're not here

i'm like a rebellious lil girl.
everyone else warning me tat the sea is full of danger.
yet, i'm going further in;
into the uncertain, danger zone.
experiences tell me,
i'm gonna get hurt, drown & even death.
but the trill of danger,
is pulling me away from sanity.

it's 2 weeks.
time flies,
but not tat fast enough,
to take away my memories.

lines and emails are open for recruiting PART-TIME BOYFRIEND.
if you qualified for the following,
please dont hesitate to send in your resume to crystal_clear_89@hotmail.com.
however, please be prepared.
you will have to go through stages of audition
conducted by stephanie yeo hui ting aka cute little devil.
(hahaha! i am super lame.)

#1: must be good looking.
#2: must got a lot of money.
#3: must know how to drive.
#4: must got a usable car. (be it daddy's car or wadever.)
#5: age group fall within 21-29.

please send in resume early as we predicted thousands of resume to be send in.

LOL.
THIS IS JUST-FOR-LAUGH!
PLEASE DONT REALLY GO & PREPARE A RESUME.
LMAO!!

ok. back to serious tone.
we did project yesterday from 11.30am to 1am.
it's like wow!
haha.
but my group members are kindda fun.
funny as well.
den jianhai drove us for dimsum after we finish.
dimsum at geylang was yumyumyum.
*drool
den i started telling them i need a boyfriend.
a rich and handsome one.
den they started elaborating on part time one better.
& i suggested to go still road, mountbatten road & tanah merah
area for some evening jogs.
which was seriously LAME.
hahaha.
& we all wished chuanxuan HAPPY BIRTHDAY while eating dimsum.
the day ended happily with my dear project mates,
but not so happily thou... ...

i just need distraction or maybe attraction;
to lure my heart back to where it actually belong.
(i'm not desperate for a boyfriend)

ok. sillyness isnt bringing me anywhere.

phoebe had just told me off.
& she is precisely saying the right thing.
hmm.
she said,
"once broken, den even the slightest crack will not be amended."
& truely, if someone wan to amend the crack.
den the crack would be long gone.
& not wait for miracle and heal by itself.

and yes, sillyness is just pure sillyness.

and yesyes, crystal is seriously dumb and silly.

and yesyesyes, crystal shall kill herself and die again.

hahaha!

p.s phoebe got very sharp mouth. but she's a nice by nature. (:

onceagain, may time travel at the speed of light.

thanks for all those who wish me happy birthday.
thanks for those who i forced but still wish me happy birthday.
thanks for those who gave me presents.
thanks thanks thanks.
hahaha!

let me list down who msg me wishing me happy birthday:
borui, joshua, felicia, anisa, wendy, alvin, weilin, xiaoqing,
stephh, brother eugene, wilson, fang, phoebe & glenn.

ppl that i force to say happy birthday:
brendon, leslie, besley, jianhai & albert.

those who hug and kiss me:
stephh, xiaoling & huishi.

those who shook my hand:
nini, caris, jolene, sean, shaun, xiaowei,
uncle yeong, and dunno still got who.

my lovely birthday is filled with love,
happiness and everything-that's-nice.


i did something silly.
but i like the silly-ness in me.
cos i get to save myself from much misery.
((:

i'm offically 18.
((:

lazy to blog.
good night!

interesting blog: acidcrue.blogspot.com

joshua got small eyes!
he cant see wad is written here.
so dun complain to me about i said ur eyes are small!
LOL.

(update on my birthday celebration some other day)

i seriously HATE myself can..

ARGH!
was telling masami about wad happen & i felt so much like crying.
stupid bloody hell!!
i jolly well know i shouldnt & he doesnt worth.
but i cant.
i cant..
)';

brainwash,
brainwash me,
amplify how he had hurt me!
collect back the memories he had given me!
& if time can heals;
may time travel at the speed of light.

REMINDER:
crystal's 18th birthday celebration is tml!
venue: EAST COAST PARK area G.
date: o7o72oo7
time: 7pm.

p.s: ppl, please bring drinks if can cos i tink no enough drinks.
tibits if u all wan eat, no money buy tibit. hahaha!!


transformer tonight!
with phoebe fabian & their singaporebikesforum friends.
had craving for the show for days.
& finally can WATCH!

my sociology teacher said:

banana;
some banana skin is brown,
but it's sweet and yummy.
some banana skin is yellow,
yet it's bitter and yucky.

some people might see the brown one and not take it.
some people might eat the yellow one and hate it.
but no matter how ppl think of the banana,
the banana is not going to change how it taste.

very true. ((:

i'm putting everything behind;
serious this time.
so you mean nothing to me.

yesterday, i slept over at stephy's house.
we wanted to go zouk.
but cancelled.
so i stayed over.

we went downstairs,
drank balleys.
nicenice.

&we went cycling at the middle of the night.
at the park.
cycle cycle cycle.
i love cycling!!

den we saw stephy's friend, dennis.
he was jogging.
& he came to join us.
also, richmond.
so the 4 of us sat around the fitness corner.
& crapped.

richmond and i was moon walking all the time.
so we came from the moon yesterday.
hahaha!

& dennis said i look like china girl.
ARGH. tis comment again.

stephy was super hyper thru the night.

after tat we waited for jianhai come fetch us.
den we went sempang mummum prata.
yumyumyum.
den talk talk alot.
till 3 plus reach home.

den online k-po here and there.
den slept at 4 plus.

Do You Know (pingpongsong) - Enrique Iglesias
If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.

(Do you know?)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me.

(Do you know?)
But after this episode I don't see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know,
do you know,
do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

(cute cute song, but sad sad lyrics)

once again,
u make it seems it's
my fault, my wrong.

i guess i should just stop;
the heart from pumping,
the tears from dropping,
the brain from thinking.
maybe i should announce the death now!

think think think....
the more i think,
the more angry i get....
& i end up with 1 conclusion:



& it's seriously not enough to suppress my anger.
FREAKING HELL ANGRY!

why is the ugly side of human so ugly?!
disgusted by you!

thanks stephhy for the hugs, cuddles and kiss.
i dint mean to u-know-wad-happen.
just dunno wad come over me today.
&& dun u worry.
it's absolutely the right thing to do.
& i seriously thank you for tat. loves!

thanks nini for tat tag.
i know you cared too.
u like very paiseh to talk to me liddat today.
hahaha!
dun feel awkward with me k?
nini is crystal's good friend always!
no matter wad. (:
loves as well!


today will be the last day!
last day for dun-tell-you-all-wad.


anyway,
crystal hates herself.
she's an idiot.
hahaha!


Lessons learned - carrie underwood.

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things, I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for everytime,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads, I never should've taken,
Been some signs I shouldn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some roads, That I wish I could have one more chance to make,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.


stupidstupid crystal!
she shall kill herself & die.
hahaha!

i'm back to normal.

my dear friends,
dun worry about me!
haha.
thanks for all the care & concern.


LOBSTER OUTING:
woke up at 7.
met phoebe, fabian and company at 9.30.
den go to jb.

reach custom at about 1 plus.
den shoot down to desaru.
reached at 3 plus.
& we had LOBSTER for lunch.
hehe.

after lunch we went bench.
the guys went swimming.
den we girls just sat.
the bench was nice,
the sand were soft.
(:

den clean up.
went to have dinner at perling.
another 1 hour plus ride.
wantan mee!

by then my butt is splitting already.
haha. pain like hell.
after dinner, homed.

10 plus reach home.
long day.


people don't always break promise.
it's just people stupidly take words seriously,
when people take it as a joke.
hmmm.