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8:01 AM
Monday, October 29, 2007
To my two love one,
(you both know who i'm referring to. yes! is the both of YOU!)
i felt really bad. it all started with my meaningless moodswing. maybe communication dint really work for me. cos by communicating, i've made all these mess. hmm.
i'm really sorry.
GUILTY! the silence between the both of you. we are not suppose to be like that. the fun, and laughters from the past, when can it be back again? i dont want the awkwardness between the 3 of us!
u both know, ILOVEYOUBOTH! can both of u dont be like that? i promise, i will be good. & show no moodswing.
hmm. i will keep everything to myself. i just want us to be like before.
I'M SORRY!
please talk, will ya all? )`:
12:32 PM
Friday, October 26, 2007
pissed! i've just shown my meaningless moodswing. and just spoilt everything.
angry at myself till tears dropped. my too-active-braincells are just doing no help. FREAK!
& i dint thought the thing between them can affect me that much. i mean i'm not the selfish or petty type. but i just cant stop myself from the thought, 'he isnt over her.' & 'i'm just her substitute'
i know it's just my crazy brain, being overly hyper active.
oh well. WHATEVER!
i'm sorry. but u cant entirely blame me.
10:06 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
changing cds again. stupid cds so troublesome! but i hope i wont have to get my last cds done at 4.1. *cross my fingers.
To : Mr Boyfriend.
i know u will read. so i purposely write give you see!
hahaha!
the purpose of today's hidden content is ... boy, erm. i'm perfectly alright with u fulfilling whatever promises u've made before we both are together. i mean this is a democratic society.
LOL. no lah. my point is i dont like empty promises myself. so dont make u someone i dont like! xp
but like what u said, we need to give each other our own spaces. so i wont stop u to u know u know. haha.
but mutual respect k? must inform me 1st lah. dont later i find out. den quarrel. (:
ok lah. that's all. thanks for giving me to me, by letting the relationship be in low profile.
loves!
lalala!
5:48 AM
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
What am I supposed to do With all these blues Haunting me everywhere No matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out In the evening glow I can't let go When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name For what you put me through It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts Go sailing by Phantom ships lost at sea And one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky I wonder why The stars don't seem to guide me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name For what you put me through It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
The ghost of you and me When will it set me free I hear the voices call Following footsteps down the hall Trying to save what's left Of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out In the evening glow I can't let go When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you And baby there's a name For what you put me through It isn't love, it's robbery I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
THE GHOST OF YOU & ME - BBMAK
low profile please. ((:
4:58 AM
Monday, October 22, 2007
MY TIMETABLE SUCKS!! angry. spoilt my mood only. arghhh.
went to add a cds today. which is the 1st day of school! added 20th century fashion. but it spoilt my supposely-lovely-timetable.
tuesday lesson is suppose to end at 11am, with 2 hours of lecture. BUT! because of the stupid cds. i've got 4 hours of break after my lecture. & 3 hours of tutorial!
kill me please! so i think it's hard to see me in tuesday lecture. ARGH! my plan of being a GOOD STUDENT is ruined.
& the worst part is the donut lecturer. she just give that too-bad-&-i-cant-be-bothered-anyway look. MAKE ME ANGRY only!
ok. enough of my endless ranting. it wont change my timetable anyway.
went sakae sushi for lunch. my 1st time to sakae! hahaha. it's given to steph, xiaojianjian & albert.
went pennisular with steph & albert. wanted to get skinnies there. but the colours are too extreme. nothing caught my eyes.
wanted to get donuts & m)yphosis slippers. but the stupid contact lens keep swimming in my eyes.
so i took 1 side out. & due to the fact that i'm 50% blind. i decided to leave for home early.
hahaha. stephhy & albert super cute can. they wanted to take bus back to tamp. den we bid goodbye. (cos i taking train) den after a while the 2 appear.
they scare i'll bang into some walls of stuffs. den accompany back to sk. LOL.
crystal's emotions goes with the weather. & in today case, IT'S NO GOOD!
it's hard to put up the usual crystal's signature smile.
CRYSTAL NEED TO BE LEFT ALONE!
i'm envious. about them.
2:02 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
added a couple of new things in my wishlist. why does it get longer & not any shorter? hahaha! money no enough.
anyway, work is terrible. gotten scolding for the past few days. which just seems so discouraging to work hard. hmm.
2 more torturous days till my off days. please, fast forward the time till my off days!
went supper with xiaojianjian just now. slack at yishan dam. hahaha! as usual, we started tickle war. this time plus biting!
dint know i bite till tat hard. his hands got all the teeth marks! opps. i'm guilty thou. cos i really dint expect it to be so bad. SORRY YEA?
tuesday night will be going out with stephy & co.
wednesday, shopping with my bestie, lianlian! LOL. long time never see her.
wednesday night clubbing with gina, stephhy & DFS colleagues. GIRLS NIGHT OUT! PARTY!!
thursday off day!
friday& saturdayWORK.
sunday going fangfang's daughter man yue. ((:
that's my schedule of my last week of holidays!
happening yea?
off to bed. ((:
10:34 PM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
WORK WORK WORK!
a few more weeks till school reopen. i need to PLAY really HARD!! lalala~
ok. this is a boring blogpost. but who cares? LOL.
out to work!
9:02 AM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
now i believe in karma, in retribution. why? because they really do happen.
so i think i will do more good deeds. like giving up seats for the needy, donate money for the poor, and be KIND!
so maybe i might strike 4D, toto. (i dont buy them thou)
went shopping with nini & stephhy. long time nv see nini! haha. she slim down alot. u're my role model! LOL.
bought a cardigan. wanted to buy m)yphosis slipper. but i think i should clear my debt 1st and see how much i've left.
hmm. i dont understand why people want to be sarcastic. i mean if you dont like something, just say it out straight, or hold ur silence laa. dont have to say something sarcastic to irritate and spoil people day. random. dontunderstand.
kenneth ask me an intelligent question which make me look stupid. he asked, " you know why those experts that research on babies are all old?" den i replied," why?" . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . the answer he gave, " because they have to wait for the babies to grow up." & i thought he's clever. cos i nv thought of that. HAHAHA!
bad karma, treat me good, and save urself from bad KARMA, RETRIBUTION!!
4:52 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
thanks my lovely WENDY for my super belated birthday present! love you so much. but i quite paiseh. xp
dont feel like blogging. ended!
((:
nice song. please click and listen! xp
nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai!
1:58 PM
Monday, October 8, 2007
i had my 1ST driving lesson from mr lee xiaojianjian! there is more to come. and he says he sit my car will get car sick. BEGINNER mah, what you expect. LOL.
now i understand why driving is tiring. cos need to clutch in, clutch out. my legs aching now. xp
maybe i should drive auto car. hahaha.
& I WANT A MINICOOPER!
i'm going bangkok with my dearest stephhy!! i'm looking forward for SHOPPING! 20-23 december. aww. let time pass faster to december!
TELL ME WHERE IT HURTS - M.Y.M.P Why is that sad look in your eyes Why are you crying Tell me now, tell me now Tell me, why you're feelin' this way I hate to see you so down, oh baby Is it your heart Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces Makin' you cry Makin' you feel blue Is there anything that I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby And I'll do my best to make it better Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender Oh and if you let me stay I'll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears coming from Why are they falling Somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold You just need somebody to hold on, baby Give me a chance to put back all the pieces Take your broken heart Make it just like new There's so many things that I can do
MINICOOPER!
12:39 PM
Sunday, October 7, 2007
i read this from friendster bulletin board. quite meaningful. ((:
Realize that the girl holding onto u is perfect in her own special way.
The way she laughs. The way she sleeps. The way she loves you. The way she tries to please you.
Always remember that.
She can always get up and walk away, getting someone else who can love her more. For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already, but she is rejecting, a maybe perfect love for her.
There might also be someone out there, who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.
Fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you. Understand that.
Ima gine this, guys. When you are holding her today, and you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another girl. & then you run back to her. & u do the same.
But you see love in her eyes. What do you think? Do you feel the hurt? Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you are goodlooking, have money, buy her things, make her parents happy, or that you can have anything you want in a snap.
She loves you for who you are. Your every touch, every word you say, everything you do.
Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl. Don't break her fragile heart. She is the only one who can love you that way. You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.
cherish me, you, her!
12:31 AM
wanted to go eski bar tonight. cold cold bar! but it was cancelled. hahaha.
i woke up super early today. at about 7.30am. to accompany my mummy & brothers for breakfast. when was the last time we had breakfast together? & we went all the way to tampines. in case, u're wondering why. it's because that's our old hometown. & all of us like it there. we want to shift back!! but mummy says she need to pay for our current house till she is 65. so no money to shift back. ):
i'm so BORED!!
disappointed.
10:49 AM
Saturday, October 6, 2007
i've been crazy this few nights!!
hahaha.
it's alcohol, alcohol & more alcohols!!
binge drinking = FATS!
so ppl, i'm getting fatter and fatter.
dont get shock when u see me like a balloon back in school.
ok. work is becoming stress & pressurizing!
the environment turned hectic & political.
hmm.
everyone is fighting for SALES.
being promoters we dont have commission.
so are we suppose to pass everything to someone else?
yet, we are given target to hit.
so if we dont hit it.
the scolding is on us.
so it's like we're struck in the middle.
howhowhow?
wrong wrong wrong!
10:34 PM
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
i'm experiencing hangover now. feel so much like vomitting. yet nothing is coming out, except lots of sour saliva. hahaha! sounds disgusting huh?
yesterday just wasnt my day. been thinking about how poor i am. cos i'm in debt. & i quarrelled with mummy. & xiaojianjian is angry at me & stephhy for being late. & ppl telling ppl stuffs about me. & which i dont recalled doing. & i just had a bad day!
aiya. when one thing doesnt go right. everything just dont go right.
so i kind of drank alot last night. haha. but i'm sorry for troubling you, stephhy. & sorry albert, i lend ur stepphy for so long. xp
& i realise i'm still brooding about stuffs. cos i just burst out crying last night. which i seriously dont understand why. LOL. i aint that strong anyway? or i aint moving on yet? or maybe the damage is just too huge?
borui was drunk! haha. this one i still remember. he's lying on the table. & i kept asking how is he. but he nv answer me.
& i realised nobody listens to what a drunkard is saying. ok. i wasnt that drunk. but i just kept talking about nonsense. & nobody is listening!! hahaha.
i wanted to wait for the 1st bus home. cos i'm penniless yesterday. but being in a state of drunkardness. i guess nobody will leave me alone.
xiaojianjian is kind enough to drive me home. haha. he wasnt feeling well, yet still took the trouble to drive me home. THANK YOU!
OK. I'M SERIOUSLY SORRY FOR TROUBLING EVERYONE! & I'M SINCERELY THANK YOU ALL FOR TAKING THE TROUBLE. ((:
i'm eating apples for all my meals. slim down!
11:22 PM
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
ok. now then i realise, realise that guys like to gossip more than ladies. & their gossiping can cause more damage. BUT WHATEVER. i'm not gonna give a damn to what is said about me that's isnt true. i mean some people dont even know who i'm, & jump in conclusion about who i'll be?! i shant be brooding or affected by such stuff.
i've finally have my off days! after 5 super tiring days. like FINALLY?!
i'm so so broke. simply no money. why isnt my pay here yet? I NEED IT FOR SURVIVAL! haha.