i'm down on luck recently.
very DOWN!
i got problems with FAMILY, FRIENDS and SCHOOL!

stupid life!
quarrels with everyone.
everything seems to be pissing me off.
ARGHH!

came school for commskill role play.
where we need to act out a meeting.
& i being the dummy SECRETARY!
i'm fine with ACTING secretary.
but the fact is i'm not going to be a SECRETARY in the future what.
so i went in to the classroom,
preparing for the meeting.
being a tech-idiot.
i dont know how to input the laptop to the screen.
i asked politely, " erm, do you know how to do this?"
then my teacher said," secretary should find out how to do this herself."
WTF!

it's ok. i continued.
then, after the role play.
she praises my group.
she says my group might score well.
BUT!
she says, " crystal, you're the weakest link of the group."
"you are not dress appropriately, & you didnt check the ppt slides."

i was in the verge of yelling out, " I"M NOT A SECRETARY IN REALITY, OR IN THE FUTURE!"

ok. but the cowardly crystal, just smiled.

hmm. everything is against me!
time to reflect.
i guess my presence anywhere is ought to bring troubles to everyone.
ARGHH!



i was reading the papers the other day.
it was reported that service line staff will get mental problem easily (or something like that.)
cos they need to fake a smile often.
therefore, you are suppressing your emotions & all.
OMG!
so one day you all might see me talking to myself,
or stabbing ppl with a knife out of nowhere.
COS I"M GOING CRAZY!
hahaha.

then, i remembered.
yesterday wilson was asking me something at work.
he said," ever since i know you, you seems so unhappy."
then i asked with a smile," where got? never ah."
then he said," there you see, your smile so fake."
before i could ask, a customer came asking for something.
then end of conservation.

he isnt the 1st to say i got fake smile.
aiyo! cos i went to make a mask from korea ma.
look so natural but fake at times.
latest technology.
hahaha! LAME~!

BADLUCK!