i'm back from bangkok.
a sudden change of plan and off i went to bangkok within 2 days.
and off for 5 days.

not exactly the very fun trip.
but not quite a bad one.
disappointing thou, i dint get to see "thai-girls show".
i was anticipating for that the whole 5 days.
):

back in singapore.
and still having the thailand withdrawal symtoms.
like whenever, i wake up i'm thinking i'm still in bangkok.
i need to call all the lazybums up for breakfast which ends at 10am.
and the next thing is shopping.

but in reality,
i need to get my ass up and go to work straight after i reach singapore the following day.

and due to the sudden decision to go for a holiday,
i have little capital to shop.
so all i bought was gifts for all the loved one, i have neglected for long.




anyway, i was greeted by a shocking news that i was fired from my current company.
i tried to convince myself that it was because of adequate promoters,
and i was the unlucky ones.
but the factual side of me was telling me, "WHY CHOOSE YOU AMONG ALL OTHERS?"

but seriously, i felt so lousy inside.
i was not the slacking like nobody business type.
i wouldnt go to send gates for hours.
nor do i go M-I-A for the like hours.
and i'm always punctual for work and breaks.
and i haven been taking MC for months.
i wasnt standing outside the aisle with a tray EVERY single time thou.
but at least i dare to say i'm outside serving when all promoters are inside the shopfloor.


just keep reminding myself that they have stupidly made a mistake in not hiring me.
i can always find a next company that see and appreciate my talent and services for them, i tell myself.


ok, enough of my blabbering on on the losing of the ricebowl story.

i found an reader's digest laying around my house today.
it's crying out to me,"MAKE FULL USE OF ME!!"
so i took it up, and read.

to my surprise, it was very interesting!
so i read on for hours and hours.
every little bit of it.

i've decided to read more to increase my intelligence and knowledge.
((:

ok. long long post to make up for the loss of the previous absence.
haha.

sometimes, i felt so little of myself.