i've sorted everything out already.

1stly, i aint gonna be sad anymore.
it is rather dumb if being sad doesnt make a diff, and yet i kept dwelling on it.
see my smile ppl!

2ndly, i'm gonna be the happy happy crystal IN CLASS again.
i guess it just takes a lil more thought to let ppl realise they cared.
(elaborate later.) & mummy always tell me,
when someone wants to pull you down,
never fall into the trap, it just makes them happy.

3rdly, crystal's NEVER going to fall in love again.
haha. never, i hope it works this time round.
heartache is too much for me to handle.
so the best is to not be emotionally attached in the 1st place.


ELABORATION:
today, i realised i've got a SWEET AS HONEY classmate.
i mean i thought we wasnt that close.
we never talk in class,
we never went out together,
we never actually cross each other life.
BUT!
she's just so sweet.
i think nobody actually realise i'm losing my smile in class.
not even me.
but she did.
she gave me a packet of sour gummy (myfav.) with a note.
note said:


isnt that very sweet?!
i think this is the sweetest gift ever.
she is just a sweet girl. (:


anyway, back to work yesterday.
carried the big diaper bag of mine to school.
i like it cos it's BIG.
haha. it looks like a diaper bag thou.
had my boots & uniform & waterbottle inside.
super heavy.
like i'm going for a holiday kind of thing.

so after school went to work with steph, albert & donavan.
STEPH, iloveyou.
pies & cakes. haha!!

i've got a strong urge to CLUB!
PARTY TIME anyone?
my thursday night is free for dance & alcohol! xp
sounds like an alcoholic.

iwillnottreatyoulikestranger,ihope.