crystal paradise

HELLO! Anybody home?

2011-02-08T07:25:00.001-08:00

I'm back! Felt so much like blogging. It's like having somewhere I could just type whatever I like. At least, now that the blog is abandoned. Nobody will know what I'm writing here. But I'm tired now. Shall think about how to pen my thoughts and get back here. Good night to me!

2008-07-26T22:34:00.000-07:00

CRYSTAL's nineteen birthday!

when things get a lil BOOB-ty. wayne the pointy boobty?!

Tiara is the new love.

(: crystal is lazy to blog.
and that explains my MIA.

2008-06-16T21:57:00.000-07:00

back from the hectic schedule.
finally had an off day from school and work.
been work work work & project project project.
even if i had a teeny weeny bit of free time,
will either be sleeping or hanging out with friends.

so finally, there is no need to appear in school for project.
but there are still projects part to complete at home.
hahaha! there's always 2 sides in everything yea.
hope project will turn out excellent in the end!

i decided to dote on myself.
and give myself a little shopping spree!
(: shopping shopping.

anyway, i heard someone asking something.
someone asked someone something like,
what will you think of someone from the way someone dance?
i was thinking and thinking.
does the way someone dance determine how loose or easy they are?
seems like a pretty interesting question.
so how about professional dancers?
be it pole dancer or salsa dancers?
their job entitle them to close contact with the opposite gender,
or make them like sleezy?
i was just thinking.
ok. i'm lame.

shopping loves!

2008-06-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

i bought a mircowave for my mama.
i tried toasting a pizza last night.
& guess what?
the cheese all turn black!
hahaha!
who says mircowave is easy to use?!

anyway, i'm going to make my 19th birthday a super big one.
cos it's my last 1something years old.
next year i'm stepping into the 2something years old zone!
OMG!

ppl please give me some ideas.

crystal's signature TWIST!

emolisation.

successful jumping photo.
unsuccessful.
unsuccessful with style! HAHAHA!
unsuccessful with unglamness. LOL!

clubbingistheprivilegesforsingles!

2008-06-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

11th of june.

fun day.
my day was filled with surprising adventure.
sometimes, it just need a lil more efforts to brighten someone day.
to friend: thanks and i know this will work out for you and s. (:

then, off to meet s. and j. at vivo.
PARTY TIME!
st james.
b. and b. treat me flaming lambo & waterfall.
shared sour apple and butterscotch shots with d.
danced.
and supper.
and home-ed.

10th of june.

collected pay.
i'll be buying a mircowave for mummy.
she said she want a mircowave.
i'm a good daughter.

9th of june.
11am; i went to bugis to meet up with my groupmates for project.
1pm; Esprit HR manager called, saying they confirm us for internship.
1.20pm; went to simlim to check about project thingy.
2.30pm; went to Esprit office to complete the SIP form.
4pm; back to school to meet dear girls to submit SIP form and a lil project.

i think i'm just super lucky.
Esprit took us in for interns like the very last minute.
GOOD KARMA.
(:

to euz: yup. learning to be strong. (:
to antz: mailed!
to 3662826: thanks dude. but mind leaving ur name? crystal's bad with number. LOL.
to dog: i'm alright. thanks anyway. (:

2008-06-08T09:52:00.000-07:00

my modem is spoilt.
and that explain my un-updated blog.

to meiling: linked! long time no see. i missyou. (:
to wendy: sick of ur attachment ah? soon will be mine. i think will be even worse. ): haha.
to stephh: thanks for helping me tell them my internet down. & ya, u been missing from my tagboard for damn long. visit often! hahaha.

BAD DAY!
was damn emo today.
work wasnt fun.
all the promoters were at north.
and i was all alone at south.
had no one to talk to,
and i guess nobody want to talk to me too.
but a nice SA j. talk to me about dogs.
and we talk & talk till there was nothing to talk.
then i return to rot at baileys counter.

that day, i kanna scolding.

it was from an SA.

about some sales thingy.

i cried.

thinking back, i should not cry.

i ought to train myself not to be a cry baby.

boohoo.

hmmm.

i kept saying i was sociable.
but i guess i wasnt really sociable.
so that's an misconception i think.
j. said i was weak.
r. said i was emo, and homely which were the characteristic of cancer.
c. said i am ms toufu.
& i think i'm everything above.
& i wasnt the naive & happy-go-lucky person i thought i used to be.
hence, i felt freaking lousy about myself.

to s.,
today, i dont know why to talk to you liddat. i'm sorry. i guess my fickle- mindedness cause alot of inconvenience. sorry to make you angry and all. still sorry.

crystalhateherself.

2008-05-28T23:20:00.000-07:00

crazy night i had.
went to work yesterday.
and ppl started asking, want go club not?
then, i said no.
got exam next week.

then ppl started asking, want go supper not?
i said no too.

then ppl started asking, go club la.
i said i consider la, nv bring clothes leh.

then ppl said, on la, go club, i go home changed then cab down sk.
i said, really ah? ok lo.

i think i'm really FICKLE MINDED,
plus easily brainwashed.
haha. no good.

so despite the fact that i've got exams plus projects on hand.
i went.

stjames,
was out of place at 1st.
cos actually i dont really know any of them.
but i guess i'm good at socialising?
haha.

1st, down some screwdriver.
2nd, some champagne.
3rd, a shot called sam-mo-ka.
then, crystal was freaking high again.
LOL!

skipped the details.

home-ed.
thanks to w. & g.
actually i should thank all gb, g, w, and b.
all of them msged me when i'm on my way home.
so nice of them.
haha. (:

woke up with a bad headache.
but still i dint puke.
and after a while, i'm fine again.

girl, i dont know why. but i'm quite sad when you said," then, i ask you go you dont want go." although i know it's my fault that when u ask me to go, i firmly said no. but yet i still went. actually, partly is i know you can click with the rest, and i know i'll be left out. but those who successfully persuaded me to go promised to keep me company. hmm. sorry darling. i went club and not supper. i think i'm contradicting my own words. i also dont know what to say. i dont want you to be angry. hmm.

work later.
my money is depleting at the speed of light.
i think i'm going to be broke soon.

it's the party phrase of my life.

2008-05-24T20:05:00.001-07:00

boohoo!
flubug found my lovely body
and decided to live with me this few days.

sore throat and runny nose.
EEK! i dont like.

i dreamt of prince charming last night. haha!
somemore is ANGMOH leh.
i think my imagination must be damn creative.
and i slept for the longest like today.
i woke up at 1.3o p.m.
normally i'll wake up at 11 latest.
must be the sweet dream with my PRINCE CHARMING,
left me lingering in the dream for more.
sounds wrong. LOL!

waiting, dilute all feelings.
once, i felt i lost everything.
now, i felt i gave up everything.
and, i felt nothing.

2008-05-24T20:05:00.000-07:00

crystal down with fever!
badbadbad.
means i'm going take MC.
means i ought to spend money on medicine that i dont eat.
means that my 50$ for my work today is gone!
I HATE FALLING SICK!

ok. i think i'm very very fickle minded.
that day, i said i'm not going my colleague l. chalet.
but after a little talk by a. and r. i end up going.
i felt out of place at 1st.
but r. kept me company thou.
lots of alcohol!
because i stupidly challenged a. who was a freaking good drinker.
and i end up getting damn HIGH!
i dont really remember what i was doing,
except i was damn HIGH!
haha.

but i cabbed home at 3 with r.
pretty impressive that i could still direct the cab uncle to my house.
HOME-ED!
wobble to my room.
wobble to toilet,
plucked out contact lens,
and left it there w/o solution.
wobble back to room.
knock out!
ya. i dint bathe.
LOL!

woke up with severe headache.
but i think my alcohol tolerance level increase.
i didnt feel veryvery disgusted,
like i usually do.
i nv puke despite having martell vsop, greentea, riesling, cockburn, beer plus blacklabel all mixed in my tummy.

done with all the craps.
i'm sick.
and it's a sunday.
how to get MC on a sunday with little money?

crystaloughttolearnhowtosayno!

2008-05-20T04:47:00.000-07:00

HAPPY VESAK DAY!
the only happy thing about vesak day is...
... i've got double pay!
which means i'll be earning 200$ for standing 5 hours.
i think that explains why my legs are not that painful after the 5 hours.
HAHAHA! practical me~

anyway, ended up at b. birthday chalet after work.
it was a critical moment deciding whether to go or not.
cos i was telling w. "if i go is like very bad, cos i said i'm not going already leh."
"but so many ppl going, steph there also leh."
so w. said," actually a bit bad la."
but i'm still there anyway.
haha!

so went back home to changed and all.
met up with w. & r. and down to sentosa.
it was 1am already.
I PAID FOR w. & r. ENTRANCE FEE!
haha. i'm proud.

down the long winding road
& tadah~
finally reached.
saw a lot of colleagues.
wish birthday boy, happy birthday.
and i think he was throw into the pool for like n times.

& so took couple of pictures at the beach.

home-ed by 4.30am.
my lesson is at 10am.
which means i gotta wake up at like 8!
but w. was even worst.
gotta wake up by 6.30.
so as a gratitude for sending me home,
i offer to wake w. up.
& miraclously, i woke up & woke w. up.

& i woke up for school at 8.30 as well.
*although i was 30 minutes late.

BUT! i skipped lecture in the afternoon.
because of the torturous 3 hours break.
& i later found out it was only 1 hour.
i should have went,
cos i was home sleeping for only 3 hours?
damn.

& because of that i dint manage to earn a free meal from w.
w. wanted to treat me because of my powerful morning call.
that save the bad & failing ATTENDANCE!
all thanks to me.

#1 joke of the day:
s. msged and said," dont know why but my butt hurts."
replied,"what did you do last night? shit too much ah?"
s. "no. not the hole there pain."
me(laughing at the reply) "hahaha! then so happening ah? play sm? who spank ur butt?"
s. " i think is you lo. maybe my butt grew bigger."
me " ya. grew bigger yet still so flat. i think i should spank more to make it big."
s. " after the swollen part, it will still be flat."
me ( told k. about it.) " k says maybe ur butt too flat, that's why the bones poking ur butts. so it hurts."

*FUNNY SHIT! i kept laughing.

i'm starving cos i woke up too early.
i craved for thaifood, fish&chips & a bar of snickers.
but i'm here eating maggiemee. YUCKS.

2008-05-18T21:35:00.000-07:00

boohoo.
crystal's back!
not been online for a couple of days.
COS! my brothers are insane over playing MAPLESTORY?!
haha.
they've been playing for the whole of the last few days.
crazy guys.

anyway, working for alot of days so far.
although standing 5 hours per day is not as tiring,
as previously 8 hours.
but my foot still got all the green green nerves popping out.
so ugly.

hmm.
i did a very bad thing yesterday.
i yell at mummy.
she cried.
felt damn bad.
i know she's just concerned.

r. said maybe is just things that's happening recently,
then suppressed too long,
so suddenly burst out.

told j. about all this things.
i dont know why i told j.
perhaps it just cos j. was msging at the time.
but i appreciate j's advice.
i like telling j. stuffs.
although, we haven talk for pretty long.

i msged her saying i'm sorry.
and treated her zinger fish burger.
so i think she will forgive me?
):

ZINGER FISH BURGER YUMYUM!

OMG, steph is damn sweet can.
she left cookie in baileys counter with a tiny note.
she left me 3 cookie.
roy only got 2. he said she biased. LOL!
but steph said she wont be going school on tues.
so that will make almost 5 days cant see her.
LOL!

my shop got a monster called v.
damn scary.

ihaterumours.
butdespitemymethodsofeliminatingrumours.
itgotworst.
&ihateit.

2008-05-15T09:42:00.000-07:00

work at t2 dep today.
time seems to fly today.
i think is because of the talking.
pretty fun.
i guess i'm slowly appreciating t2 departure.

saw kent on bus home today.
he said to his gf," crystal is a girl i'll go out with, but will nv like."
haha. i totally agree.
i guess he's the only guy friend,
that i find no trouble confining my thought to.
so we talked all the way to sk.
but felt kind of bad,
cos he put down the phone with his gf just to hear my sad story.
kent is a nice friend. (:

crystal's heart will be taking a long break.

2008-05-14T08:04:00.000-07:00

2nd post of the day.

went for prac 6 today.
it was very fun riding on the road.
plus, the 2 instructors today were always nice to me.
haha.
but night riding is kind of scary.
cos i dont recognise roads at night.
so i just blindly followed my instructors.
FUN thou.

suppose to go club today with some colleagues.
but backed out due to some unknown reason.
haha.

found this picture in some hidden folder.

i thought it look kind of cute.

stephh`

the talk at balcony that night make me realise how bad a friend i was.

if only i could show you how much i love you.ok. this sound really wrong.

but i really really think u're a GREAT friend. i must have did tons of good deeds to

receive such a good karma.

ILOVEYOU! (:

p.s: sorry about ur birthday night, i ruined it & nv once said sorry.

lovescrystal.

am i making the right choice?

please tell me you worth the wait.

2008-05-14T06:36:00.000-07:00

KARMA!

that day, my teacher said.
"nature/ a greater power is fighting back."
cos we were discussing about prejudices that day.
one said," i have prejudices about ppl who skinned animals alive."
i totally agree with that.
to be honest, i detest all cruelty against animals.
they feel the pain too u know.
then my teacher go on saying.
"china is one of the largest country that are doing inhumane actions towards animals."
for e.g bears keep in small cages just for the gall juices.
for e.g tigers poached for the fur.
for e.g skinning of all sorts of animals, including dogs.
for e.g eating animals such as dogs, rabbits & etc.
the list goes on and on and on and on.

warning: you may find this video disturbing, but please do watch.
cos it will really change ur mind.

so the recent case of china earthquake that killed thousands of ppl.
is that karma by any chance?
i think we have to really stop all this shit.
we took away lands,
we took away their lives even.

love animal please.

2008-05-12T09:37:00.000-07:00

To1 CLASS CHALET!

let's start with the pretty pretty pictures.

how about some candid!
crystal the fairy, grant you a wish with her satay WANDs!

TADAH! the sweetest classmate i've had. (: the picture is blurred thou. crystal once LOVES satay alotalot. but she nv touch satay for a long long time! SAVE THE ANIMALS PPL!

take in a deep breath!
prepare for the ultimate,

breath taking,

UGLIEST photos

of CRYSTAL GOH!

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3-

ding dong crystal.

i-dont-know-how-to-describe crystal.
i-saw-big-boobs crystal 1.
i-saw-big-boobs crystal 2.
all-of-us-have-small-eyes.
it's-all-about-tongues!
steph-what-you-trying-to-grab.
last pic of the day!

ok. crystal kind of love to1.

& today crystal had a happy day.

dont tell you all why.

anyway, wearing a striking orange baileys uniform in school is not at all wise.

stares, glares, & this-girl-ding-dong type of look isnt making me comfortable.

haha.

foryou,i'llwait.

2008-05-11T11:38:00.000-07:00

when blisters meets ulcers.
it's a painful encounter.

let me see,
crystal have 1.. 2.. 3.. 4 blisters!
& 1.. 2.. 3.. 4 ulcers!

poor me!

pictures from chalet coming up.
kinky crystal unleashed!
stay tuned~

haha.

2008-05-10T22:06:00.000-07:00

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enjoy my story. (:

like opening an old closet,

flipping through a closet full of old torn clothes.

so you pick up each and every single piece.

the gush of every single memories filling your mind.

& soon, eyes turned red.

& the next things you realised,

tearsdrops that you've left with the forgotten memories,

once again, became a familiar yet dreaded emotion.

but it wasnt that bad.

opening an old closet meant you've decided to forget.

to face the fact of lost.

and so one by one,

memories unleashed,

& so, you open up the rubbish bin.

tried on all the old clothes.

& finally set your mind.

that this were no longer your needs.

neatly folded and dumped into the big black trashbag.

down to the trashbin.

& when the trashman came,

you stood by the door,

looking & wondering where your memories will go.

& pondering whether did you really throw the part of him which is in your heart,

together with the old memories... ...

crystal hate loveyDOVEY!

crystal hate thinking of saying iloveyoubaby everytime she close her eyes.

random, but it just make me sad.

LOL!

2008-05-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

tadah!
today is a boring day.
no lesson, no programme, no work!

yesterday, went to t2 departure to work.
ROBERT (sales manager aka the HANDSOME PRINCE CHARMING) was roaming around.
i swear he is better looking than DAVID.
haha. ppl please agree and dont deny the fact!

but despite being that handsome,
he is still our so called "lao ban"
means, he is still very strict.

so he came over to me,
and asked," how's baileys?"
& i stupidly answered," alright."
what i meant was, the sales was alright.
then he further questioned," how's the sales of the gift packs?"
"how about the promotion with 2 gift packs with a complimentry bag?"
so i said," i think customers will take 2 big bottles rather than 2 giftpacks."
and he asked again," so 2 bottles come with a baileys cd?"
i said," ya, complimentary right?"
he end by saying," that's interesting."

hahaha! actually the above conversation was boring and mundane.
but! the point is, "HE TALK TO ME!"
ok. he's really super-duper-cannotmakeit HANDSOME!
AWWW.
ok. enough of my crap!

after our work, steph and i went to club.
told ghimbeng, and he gave us a funny remark.
he said," wah, u two 'siao on' ah?"
what exactly is siao on?!

then, coincidentally we saw TZELIP & some of our colleagues outside zouk.
it was like, we thought we two girls was going to club alone.
but TADAH! friends came.
saw marcus too, 2nd time i saw him in zouk.

mambo wasnt really my cup of tea.
so not really fun.
but drinking was fun thou.
drink drank drunk.

ok. end of story.
went home and knock out.
i think i dint remember much last night.

to stephhy:

thanks for the fun & company last night. i had fun! but i think it is not very wise to

ask you go club that often. haha. send me the pictures k darling!

lovescrystal.

2008-05-06T06:32:00.000-07:00

something interesting struck me.
why is ok spelled as O-K?
what's the meaning behind?

anyway, today i was talking to my brother.
he was saying how his friends are better than him.
so i said," dont need to be envy. it's just that your time of success not here yet."
ya. i guess i've made my point here.
although, we are not born with a silver spoon.
but i think we are at least born with a pair of hands and legs.
wouldnt it be better if i create success with my bare hands.
rather than getting it from my parents?

what a positive mindset i have.
I THINK i'm going to be successful someday.
maybe not financial wise.
but at least not a failure in leading my life yea.

i'm a crappy monster today.

isawyoulookingatmeagain,

andforamoment,

ifeltlikeholdingyourhandsagain.

2008-05-03T22:05:00.000-07:00

i've passed my RTT!!

PDL & my license soon ppl.
wish me luck & dont fall on the road.

istillmisseverythingaboutus.
canistillsay,iloveyoustill.
canyoustilltellme,youwantmeback?

2008-04-30T23:50:00.001-07:00

i've sorted everything out already.

1stly, i aint gonna be sad anymore.
it is rather dumb if being sad doesnt make a diff, and yet i kept dwelling on it.
see my smile ppl!

2ndly, i'm gonna be the happy happy crystal IN CLASS again.
i guess it just takes a lil more thought to let ppl realise they cared.
(elaborate later.) & mummy always tell me,
when someone wants to pull you down,
never fall into the trap, it just makes them happy.

3rdly, crystal's NEVER going to fall in love again.
haha. never, i hope it works this time round.
heartache is too much for me to handle.
so the best is to not be emotionally attached in the 1st place.

ELABORATION:
today, i realised i've got a SWEET AS HONEY classmate.
i mean i thought we wasnt that close.
we never talk in class,
we never went out together,
we never actually cross each other life.
BUT!
she's just so sweet.
i think nobody actually realise i'm losing my smile in class.
not even me.
but she did.
she gave me a packet of sour gummy (myfav.) with a note.
note said:

Dear Crystal,

Recently noticed that you are not in a happy mood. No see you smile le.

I hope you are fine! This little packet of sweets is bought to, hopefully, can cheer you up a little. Keep smiling, cos you wont know who will fall in love with your smile!(:

Frien from To1 & To3

isnt that very sweet?!
i think this is the sweetest gift ever.
she is just a sweet girl. (:

anyway, back to work yesterday.
carried the big diaper bag of mine to school.
i like it cos it's BIG.
haha. it looks like a diaper bag thou.
had my boots & uniform & waterbottle inside.
super heavy.
like i'm going for a holiday kind of thing.

so after school went to work with steph, albert & donavan.
STEPH, iloveyou.
pies & cakes. haha!!

i've got a strong urge to CLUB!
PARTY TIME anyone?
my thursday night is free for dance & alcohol! xp
sounds like an alcoholic.

iwillnottreatyoulikestranger,ihope.

2008-04-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

today went mystery shop with steph & donavan.
but i think there's like something wrong with the questionaire.
i love going out with steph.
but today i guess she's tired.
haha. dint talk much thou.
(:

impulse buying again.
shopped around, entered f21.
saw this dress that was damn nice.
43$.
tried, and i bought it.

we shopped around,
went agnes b, i want the coinpouch! (155$)
and i decided to get a burberry bag.
i'm gonna get all this with my next pay.

i'm back with baileys.
and i'm working 21 shift next month.
MONEYMONEY!

sometimes it just takes 1 moment to sort everything out.
1 moment to realise that everything isnt as bad as you think.
i appreciate that you didnt replied my nonsense.
cos' it made me learnt how to put everything down.

crystal is bad with breakup.

2008-04-28T03:29:00.002-07:00

ok. i guess i'm emotionally stable finally.
the good thing about humans or any other animals is that we learn how to adapt.
adapt to any drastic environment.
to make us feel better?
(:

oh. and btw, mum called me when i was outside the other day.
i was with chunlian.

so she: " who are you with?"
i : " chunlian lo."
she: " chunlian not with her boyf meh?"
i : " the lightbulb here spoilt ma, i come be lightbulb."
she : " xiao char bo, jianhai leh?"
i : " i thought that day i told you no more liao."
she : " why leh? what happen?"
i : " no lo. quarrel then no more. but we still same class."
she : " see lah, tell you dont this one that one dont want listen. aiya, dont want say you lah."

haha. the moral of the story is i dont know why i will tell my mum about the breakup.
and amazingly, i dint cried.
i just said in a very normal way.
& MUMMY! ILOVEYOU! (:

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

She said if we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
She said like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I know you deserve much better
Remember the time I told you the way that I felt
And that I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this aroundI know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes - Lifehouse

2008-04-28T03:29:00.001-07:00

i wrote a card.
a card that states memories.
a card that holds tears.
a card that ends stories.

a card, my last attack.
a card, my last retreat.

a goodbye card.

yet, you dint reply.

2008-04-28T03:29:00.000-07:00

you look as though things were just so normal.
but i'm just not at the least as strong as you are.
times and times that tears filled up in my eyes.
times and times i felt as though i'm the only one feeling all lousy about this.

but at least at least you told me the 4 words, that i needed.
at least i know i wasnt still alone.

anyway, crystal's single yet again.

2008-04-24T09:18:00.001-07:00

i know i will miss,
miss the midnight jb trip,
miss the prawning trip,
miss the laughter of urs when i sang something wrong.
miss the time when we were in ur car, tuning in to muttons.
although the last phrase of us,
we dint really meet that much.
but i really really miss every memories.

Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
'Coz heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love.

you said," move on with ur life."
how easy.
but my tears just keep flowing & flowing.
i wanted to hold everything back.
stop everything.
but you're so determined,
determined to end this.
maybe, maybe i just need your determination.
iloveyou, doesitmatteranymore?

2008-04-24T09:18:00.000-07:00

i wish i hadnt cared.
i wish i hadnt seen.
i wish i hadnt loved.

i wish...

2008-04-18T09:11:00.000-07:00

STUPID DUMBASS!

to think i actually thought you'll keep ur promise.
to think i'm such a DUMBASS!!!!!!

disappointment again & again.
i'm like an idiot.
waiting for NOTHING!
no, waiting for you to tell me,
"oh, i'm sorry, tml ok?"
and then, tml.
you will find excuses like,"oh, i need to save the earth. let's make it another day."

seriously, i'm F***king disappointed.
i guess i seriously ought to learn my lesson this time round.

dont keep giving me false hope,
and crash everything,
i cant take it, really.

2008-04-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

SHOPSHOP ONLINE!

please visit majesticvalentine.blogspot.com.

ongoing sprees include f21, gojane and cutiefashion.

and i've spent 50.51$ there. LOL

no job and i'm spending like crazy. xp

back from genting!

it was a not-very-fun trip.

shant elaborate.

but i've met a cute girl!

she's very fun thou.

and things was back to normal ever since i step in singapore.

as in the part where "we" are involved.

hmmm. things dont change, dont they?

anyway, i've decided to become a vegetarian.

but one that can still eat seafood, other then sharkfins.

haha! no pork, no chicken but still fish and prawns!

the reason is iLOVEANIMALS!

actually this is because of the conservation of wildlife thingy i saw in genting.

every break in between shows, they will show a short film.

show cruel humans kill poor bears, tigers, rhino and the list goes on.

which also reminded me of the rancoons skining alive scene i've seen on youtube.

so i've decided to not kill animals by eating them.

not wanting to be left on earth with just cruel HUMANS!

(: but i still think fish is alright. cos they have 3 sec memory.

so they wont remember anything. xp

went movie with donavan & jermine yesterday.

definately maybe.

the girl that acted in it was awesome!

abigail breslin, i watched her movie, nim's island in genting too.

i think she acted like so well.

and she's super adorable!

then, went over to airport.

cos donavan wants to take his GUCCI wallet from steph.

haha. i think he's excited about his new wallet.

his expression tell it all.

anyway, i was blabbering on on the bus to the airport,

and back to sk.

i think i'm really very talkative.

i can talk about things like anything on earth.

the best part is, DONAVAN IS DAMN QUIET!

haha. he just hear me blabber on and on and on.

timetable's out!

steph not the same class as me! ):

damn sad.

but my wednesday and thursday will be totally lesson-free.

mum says,"go get a job hor"

haha. job seeking!

any job lobang anyone?

boringboringdumbdumb day!

2008-04-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

class chalet for the last 3 days.
as usual, chalet's a boring thing.
but i guess it's the last gathering for 2ro1.

i am noob, but i like mahjong! (random)

saw stephhy last night.
hmm. seems so distant with her.
cos it's like dont know how many donkey years we had last met.
was trying to figure out what the msg implied.
the impactful, "dont know crystal is a good friend not."
set me thinking, actually i'm a lousy friend to everyone.

things isnt really smooth sailing for me lately.
depression taking over.
CRYSTAL LOSING HERSELF! haha.

2008-04-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

imeem got problem.
cant upload the song. ):
let youtube do the job. haha.

the song makes me cry.
read the lyrics.

Forget About Me - Little Bit

You said, it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again.
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.

Too late, sorry.
I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.

Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
'Coz heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Was this how you want it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The Misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

you nv kept to your promises.
why does things always have to turn out to be my fault?
have you ever really be in my shoes and think?
all you said was,"i dont want to continue this conversation."
off you go, to your sleep.
leaving me hanging.

DISAPPOINTMENT, yet again.

2008-04-01T08:08:00.001-07:00

TADAH~
i passed my prac 3!
no kerb no rolling down slope!
hahaha.

yesterday was my didi's birthday.
so we went vivo with him and my elder brother.
for a feast at Marche.
going out with them was an enjoyable trip.
cos my brothers are very entertaining!

before dinner, we guys went for a movie.
the gv at vivo sucks!
hahaha.
ok. everyone knows my little brother looks older than his actual age.
so we booked SEMI-PRO tickets.
the show is NC16.

so my brother is underage.
ok. i know it's our fault to try sneaking him in.
but THEN, the attitude of the CHINA woman is very no good.

we was at the entrance going into the cinema.
then the china woman is the worker there.
she demanded for our IC.
but it's so obvious that me and my brothers are over the age limit.

so still ku ku bird talk to us in her broken ENGLISH.
then finally she couldnt continue with her limited vocab.
so she speak to us in CHINESE!

i regretted not continue talking in english with her.
then, i asked whether can close one eye.
she said cannot.
then, she said," you all can refund for that ticket, or change a show."
seeing her fellow CHINA colleague coming,
she told him that," they all underage."

i was like, "HELLO, only 1 underage can."
anyway, she continue by asking what movie we want to watch.
then, we chose spiderwick.
so she told her china colleague, saying that we doesnt want to go down to change.
so she must help us. (the entrance & the booth is 2 diff levels.)

we nv even mention we dont want to go down.
we are just waiting for them to tell us what to do.
then, she trying to be noble, said she will HELP us to go down.

hmm. but in the end, she didnt.
she asked her colleague, "since you're more experienced, you bring them to change the tickets."
so we still have to go down.

anyway, i had a sucky experience at the cinema.
so i dont think i'm going any time soon again.
we are also quite amazed by the amount of FOREIGN(china) people are working there.
maybe singapore are lacking of TALENT being ushers in the cinema?

this issue is pretty serious.
cos it's like bringing down the image of singapore.
having more non-english speaking foreigners working in the frontline(airport,tourists attractions.)
so what's about the multi-languages singaporeans image, mr LKY is trying to build for years?!

LOL!
ok, i think i'm over elaborating.
end!

2008-04-01T08:08:00.000-07:00

APRILFOOL!
isitmedemandingtoomuch?isntthathowacoupleshouldbehave?
iwasjusttryingtoseewhetheryouaregoingsupperwithurfriends.
andyouliedsayingthatyoudintbringurhandphonewithyou.
butisawyoutakingouturhandphoneandputitinurpocket.
APRIL FOOL!
whydidyoulie?i'mnoteventryingtotagalongorwhat?
i'mjustaskingifyou'regoingtobeoutlate.
sothenextdayiwontwakeyouupunnecessarily.
butyoumadeyourchoice.
yourchoice;lie.
APRIL FOOL!
iffreedomisreallywhatyouneedthatmuch.
i'llgiveyou.iwontaskaboutwhere,who,when,what,how.
iwantedtohavethesameprivilegeasyou.
butyouaskedwhereamitoday.
thinkingthati'mnottheonethatneededthatmuchfreedom.
ichosetotellyouwhereiam,
andnot;lie.
APRIL FOOL!
iguessourrelationshipwillbeverydullwithoutknowingeachotherwhereabout.
and"loveyou"seemssosuperficial;sofake.
APRIL FOOL!
ifyoumanagetoreadtillhere.
iguessi'llhavetotellyou,
wewontlastthisway.
iffreedomisreallyyouwant,
maybeyoushouldntevenhaveagirlfriend.

2008-03-31T20:45:00.000-07:00

i failed my PRAC 3!
):

hahaha. very disappointed.
everyone that's same with me for prac 3 that day all passed.
including the guy who is 1st timer for prac 3.
he damn heng!

and i think my reason for failing is because my bike went up the curb.
STUPID FIGURE 8!
it's like once you enter the fig 8,
you have a thousand and 1 things to do.
1st, change gear.
2nd, cancel signal.
3rd, look at cones.
4th, trottle and clear fig 8 within 11 seconds!

hahaha! ok i really must clear prac 3 the next time.

if freedom is what you really want,
i'll give it to you.

2008-03-23T10:01:00.000-07:00

i'm back from bangkok.
a sudden change of plan and off i went to bangkok within 2 days.
and off for 5 days.

not exactly the very fun trip.
but not quite a bad one.
disappointing thou, i dint get to see "thai-girls show".
i was anticipating for that the whole 5 days.
):

back in singapore.
and still having the thailand withdrawal symtoms.
like whenever, i wake up i'm thinking i'm still in bangkok.
i need to call all the lazybums up for breakfast which ends at 10am.
and the next thing is shopping.

but in reality,
i need to get my ass up and go to work straight after i reach singapore the following day.

and due to the sudden decision to go for a holiday,
i have little capital to shop.
so all i bought was gifts for all the loved one, i have neglected for long.

anyway, i was greeted by a shocking news that i was fired from my current company.
i tried to convince myself that it was because of adequate promoters,
and i was the unlucky ones.
but the factual side of me was telling me, "WHY CHOOSE YOU AMONG ALL OTHERS?"

but seriously, i felt so lousy inside.
i was not the slacking like nobody business type.
i wouldnt go to send gates for hours.
nor do i go M-I-A for the like hours.
and i'm always punctual for work and breaks.
and i haven been taking MC for months.
i wasnt standing outside the aisle with a tray EVERY single time thou.
but at least i dare to say i'm outside serving when all promoters are inside the shopfloor.

just keep reminding myself that they have stupidly made a mistake in not hiring me.
i can always find a next company that see and appreciate my talent and services for them, i tell myself.

ok, enough of my blabbering on on the losing of the ricebowl story.

i found an reader's digest laying around my house today.
it's crying out to me,"MAKE FULL USE OF ME!!"
so i took it up, and read.

to my surprise, it was very interesting!
so i read on for hours and hours.
every little bit of it.

i've decided to read more to increase my intelligence and knowledge.
((:

ok. long long post to make up for the loss of the previous absence.
haha.

sometimes, i felt so little of myself.

2008-03-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

diamond went missing the other day.
i nearly burst out in tears when i received my brother's call.
but anyway it's a false alarm.

she was found in the end.
scare the hell out of me.
she is just a naughty lil brat.

but when my brother was searching for her,
i was thinking about what to do without her.

hmm. anyway, phew~
she's back.

& results' here.
luckily i passed everything.
not good results thou.
but i'm contented.
considering the facts of all the missing lectures and tutorials,
i can passed is like WOW already.

went for prac 2 today.
learnt how to signal left & right,
check blindspot,
and check blindspot,
and and check check blindspot.

hahaha!
seriously is check check check & CHECK!
cos when you are moving off,
you need to check.
got cars need to check.
no cars also need to check!

but quite fun.
the only thing is i dont know where is left and right.
so, the instructor said," check left check left."
then, i turned to my right!
WHAHAHA!

now we are having a change of plan.
boy and i wanted to go zoo on sunday.
which is my working day.
so i ask DONAVAN(i know how to spell ur name liao) to replace me.
but he pointed out a good point.
which is MONSOON season.
how to go zoo?

so we thought...
then, he remembered his friends going bangkok on sunday.
he called and asked.
then, they said 2 guys backing out of the trip.
(supp paper's fault)
but the airticket already booked and paid.

so he asked, want go not?
but i was like, huh? i no money leh.
then he said, i pay for ur airticket lah.
then is like so good deal, why dont go right?
but everything is not yet confirm.
if i go for this then no sunway lagoon already.
but i so wanted to go sunway. hmmm.

sunway? bangkok?

2008-03-10T03:49:00.001-07:00

been raining like almost everyday.
i always thought feb should be the hottest month?

lalala~
i went for my bike prac today!
and i can go for prac 2 already.
YEAH!
like super happy.
cos i really was thinking to give up if i still dont clear lesson 1.
my braking is better now!

but actually i think the instructor i had today is like muchmuch better.
cos he really explain every details well.
he even like tell us why must release clutch before brake when engine braking.
not like the previous instructor that failed me.
he nv even tell us to look at the cones when cornering,
and nv say must use rear brake.
hahaha!

i think i should get a raincoat and helmet soon.
the raincoat there is either too big or torn!
and the helmet very smelly.
anyone know where got sell cheap helmet and raincoat?

my boyfriend is sick.
like very sick.
he said he wouldnt be meeting me this few days.
wanted to visit him after my prac.
but he replied my msg late,
and i dont know how to go tamp from ubi.
so i went home.
he's sleeping, i also cant disturb him.
so my off day is to stay at home.
it was suppose to be step up 2 day. ):

wanted to ask my girlfriends out for movie.
but but but...

alright, end of story.

STEP UP 2!

2008-03-05T20:48:00.000-08:00

bad news!
i had to retake my bike prac lesson 1 again!!
hahaha.
the instructor said my braking no good.

BUTBUTBUT!
i got reasons for it can.

1stly, the previous instructor says dont need to brake before clutching in.
then, this instructor says need to brake before u clutch in and drop gears.

2ndly, the big big raincoat is so not user friendly.
all the raincoat left are sizes XL! and i have to wear them.
which means it's so damn big.
and i felt so heavy with them can.

3rdly, i wore a socks with a hole in the toes.
so when i shift gears, my big toe and the 2nd one got caught in the hole.
and because the hole wasnt big enough.
my toes became super uncomfortable.

HAHAHA!

ok. that are all my excuses.
but anyway, there goes my 21.40$.
so let's hope i can get to lesson 2 SOON!

then, after lesson went for dinner plus movie.
10,000B.C.
the show was not bad.
but not the realistic type of movie.
i was giving lots of comments during the movie.
till jianhai was saying," yayaya, you director GOH right?
your next movie is waterhorse isit?"
haha.

then, at the end of the movie.
lights on, i look around and saw a familiar face.
so i was," EHHHH!" (pointing at him)
then, he just turn away.
hahaha!
then, i saw NINI!!
the him was nini's boyfriend.

so coincidental.
the movie was at kallang leisure park leh.
not cathay or what.
then, nini ask me why i follow her.

NINI, did you put a gps system to stalk me?!
hehehehe!

ok. anyone want go sunway lagoon?
the more the merrier!
xp

you can contact me via handphone, tagboard or email. hahaha!

sunway lagoon.

2008-03-04T20:31:00.000-08:00

yeah!!!!
my 2nd bike prac is today!
i think i forget to blog about my 1st bike prac right.

my 1st prac was fun.
to think i could move the bike without falling down!
but the bike is real real heavy.
so if i really was to fall,
i dont think i can escape. LOL!

the 1st prac was about shifting gears,
moving the bike,
and stopping at the target line.

ok. enough said.

next topic, DURIANS!
i think the durians season is here again?
everywhere is selling durians!
so yesterday, me, him, joshua, chuanxun, gary & sweesiong went for durians.

nicenicenice!
the uncle selling durians also very funny.
cos it's at geylang.
(i think the uncle must be thinking i'm one of the you-know you-know.)
then, he ask me how old am i.
so i said, 19.
then he say he's old already.
and he go on saying he got 3 wives.
1 in vietnam, 1 at china and 1 in singapore.
LOL!

i thought the law only allow 1 wife and 1 man type of thing?

but the uncle is quite nice thou.
the durians was nice too.
and the good thing is you can eat and see all the you-know you-know walking around.
xp

holidays!
thinking of going sunway lagoon.
then go KL shopping.
should be cheaper right?
LOL!

aiya, dont know.
i need to save to get a bike too.
very confusing.
MONEY IS NEVER ENOUGH!

HOLIDAYS!

2008-03-02T19:31:00.000-08:00

things changed dramatically.
everything went wrong.
the words are so hurting that tears came gushing out from the eyes.
the familiar feeling.
the same heartache.

you are NEVER once there when i needed you.

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didnt know where to turn to
See somehow I cant forget you
After all that we've been through

go in, come in
thought i heard a knock who's there? no one
thinking that i deserved it
now i realize that i really didnt know you didnt notice,
you mean everything quickly im learning,
to love again all i know is, imma be ok

how could i turn on the tv
without something there to remind me
was it all that easy
to just put aside your feelings

if im dreaming dont wanna let, hurt my feelings

but thats the path, i believe in
and i know that, time will heal it
you didnt notice, you mean everything quickly im learning,
to love again all i know is, imma be ok

since theres no more you and me
its time i let you go
so i can be free and live my life how it should be
no matter how hard it is ill be fine without you
yes i will

thought i couldnt live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
eventhough i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time

2008-02-26T00:05:00.002-08:00

too excited about my prac today that i forget to blog about things going on yesterday.

haha. let's continue.
yesterday was a happy, and not so happy day.
happy because it was the last day of EXAMS!
not so happy because i really really have a strong feeling of having SUPP.
but i really really hope my strong feeling was wrong.

dont want to talk about the papers and stuffs.
cos i know everyone will get bored.
LOL!

so let's talk about local news.
in case u havent read the papers or seen the news.
a terrorist escaped from jail.
the problem is "IT'S IN SINGAPORE!!!!"
normally we will say," how it is even possible? singapore suppose to be safe mah."
but all i can say is accident or coincident do happen.

and it's not about "why the police nv guard properly?"
it's about getting the Mas Selamat Kastari back to the jail.
so being a singapore citizen,
i guess everyone have to play a part.

the first picture is initially Mas Selamat Kastari photo.
the second one is what police predicted him to look like now, without the facial hairs.
let's hope he will be caught soon.

all the best to SINGAPORE!

2008-02-26T00:05:00.001-08:00

WHAHAHA!!

i finally enrol for 2b license.
and guess what?
my practical lesson is TML!
fast hur.

damn excited!!

was jokingly telling my boyfriend,
what if tml i ride,
den fall down?

then he said, (coincidentally there was a ambulance infront of us)
"then the ambulance infront for you one lo."
HAHAHA!

let's hope i can get my license real soon!~

CRYSTAL RIDER HERE I COME!

vbroomvbroom.

2008-02-26T00:05:00.000-08:00

exams week!
left with 2 more papers.
& instead of mugging.
i'm addicted to VIWAWA!
hahaha.

what's viwawa?
go viwawa.com and find out.
i bet you'll be addicted too.

i had been complaining too much in my blog.

so i decided not to complain and write a story.
read on if you are bored.

life story of DIAMOND!

who's diamond?!

she is my lovely doggie!
she recently response to me calling her " CHANG JIANG 8 HAO, or 8 ZAI!"
if you had watched CJ7,
you should know what i mean.
hahaha!

diamond is adopted by me & my brother
despite the objection of my parents.
mummy dislikes dog.
daddy hates dog.

when she first came to our house.
i kept her in my room.
she laid there, quietly.
like a fluffy soft toy.

then i told my mummy,
"see, she so guai."

one month later.
diamond was well-liked by mummy.
fed, bathe and even gaigai with mummy.

my elder brother who do not play with her.
began to play with her cause he thought nobody's playing with her.
now, he even msg me to tell me he miss diamond when he was in camp a few months ago.

daddy hated diamond.
he just loves his pet birds.
and thought diamond will bite them.
so there was once,
when he is bathing his pet birds.
and diamond went into the kitchen area.
DADDY KICKED DIAMOND.

diamond came crying(if u had a dog, u will know the sound dogs make.) to me.
i blog about this before.
but it was longlong ago.
after that incident,
diamond was shocked.
she fell sick.
and didnt eat and drink for days.

being an amateur in keeping dog.
i send her to a vet that cause 100 over dollars.
and afterward kept her at my friend's house.

at my friend's place, diamond made a new friend, jewel.
and she recovered fast.
mummy persuaded me to leave her there.
but i said, " NO, you teach me to be responsible, and now you asking me to abandon her?"

so i took diamond back.
daddy still didnt like her.

till now, it has been 2 years.
diamond became part of our life.
when the whole family went out.
mummy will ask," you think diamond will eat or not?"

haha!
but diamond is stupid.
she steps on her shit!
WHAHAHA!

viwawa!

2008-02-22T22:03:00.000-08:00

the silence between me & him.

i dont remember when.
but i remember how hurting it is to see him not talking to me.

jealousy,
when he could talk, joke and even mock everyone else.
but me.

reminiscing,
the times where you said silly jokes.
yet, i was laughing so hard.

& if you are wondering who's him.
he's none other than my, DAD!

i guess he will be my greatest regret if we continue the cold war.

mum said we both have the same temper.
but i said, i talked, he ignored.

so?

forget it.
i guess there is no point to rant about things that have no ending even after ranting.

sometimes, you dont realise.
but silence itself can cut you deeper
than constant quarreling.

2008-02-21T07:03:00.000-08:00

the pocket bikes nini talking about. hahaha!

THIS IS A SINGAPORE VESPA! OMG!

arent they cute?! hahaha!

2008-02-18T20:55:00.003-08:00

i'm in the foulest kind of mood!
i just feel like scolding everyone including myself!

VERY VERY ANGRY!

as i mention previously.
i went to do some stuffs ALONE.
the stuffs include ; buy TOTO.
enrol for my bike license.
and going to jalan besar to buy something.

then, i took bus 27 and change to 23.
cos that 's the only bus i know will pass by jalan besar.
it took me 1 hour.

NVM!
den i alighted at the stupid stop,
which i had to walk very long to jalan besar plaza.

NVM!
den when i reach there.
the bloody shop is closed.
& will open at 230. (i was there at 130)

NVM!
took a bus to bugis.
buy TOTO for my mummy & brother.
& walk into a shop & spent nearly 200$.
(impulse buyer)

NVM!
that SOMEONE came to fetch me.
so i thought we could go jalan besar,
then enrol for bike, then go study.

BUT!
we went the wrong way.
entered a carpark with no grace period.
SOMEONE want to go temple.
thinking that the shop will close anytime.
i threw a tantrum.

NVM!
after going to the temple,
i told SOMEONE dont need go jalan besar.
just go enrol can already.
then, on the highway,
SOMEONE ask " how to go ah?"
being very angry already.
i said," NVM! dont need go already.
just send me home."

SO ENDED UP I DID NOTHING OF WHAT I SUPPOSE TO DO.
(EXCEPT BUYING TOTO.)
AND SPENT 200$ RIDICULOUSLY.

seriously, i felt so disappointed.
i've been wanting to enrol for my bike license.
and that something at jalan besar is important too.
like i spent stupid hours doing nothing when i'm suppose to study.
DISAPPOINTMENT!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-02-18T20:55:00.002-08:00

TOTO FEVER!

ok, 10 million dollar!
who isnt tempted, please raise ur hand.
hahaha!

my brother called mummy.
then mummy ask whether i'm going out.
& i said yup.
then, she gave me 3 sets of numbers to buy.

I NV BUY TOTO/4D BEFORE.
(nervous) hahaha.

hmmm. i'm VERY DISAPPOINTED!
SOMEONE promise to meet me at 1030 to do a couple of stuff.
but that SOMEONE was still sleeping at 1030!
& i tell you," nvm lo, continue sleep lo."
that SOMEONE really continue sleep.

nvm! i'm alright with going to do all that stuffs ALONE!
ARGHH!
STUPID SOMEONE!

2008-02-18T20:55:00.001-08:00

I WANT GO HONGKONG DISNEYLAND! ((:

& the airticket to hongkong is about 128.

hongkong!

((:

2008-02-18T20:55:00.000-08:00

EXAMS ARE HERE!

my coursework results are like shit!
C's & D's!
how to pass like that?
maybe if i get 100 marks for all my exams paper then i will get some B's.
haha.
but actually all i want is a decent PASS.
easily contented hurr.

anyway, yesterday while working i realised something.
the thing is, sometimes the bond between people is just so amazing.
because, i only work with this girl ONCE,
but we seems to know each other for decades.
our conservations can go on & on & on, non stop.
even when i saw her the 2nd time yesterday.

but strangely, i work with this guy for the 3rd time.
and i think the conservations between us was pathetically less than 10 sentences.
i dont even want to initiate to talk to him.
& the feeling he gave was he had no other business in talking to me as well.
so could u imagine the boring 8 hours i had.
just seems to be i'm working alone.

and there was another type of bonding.
this bonding is a hybird of what i just mention above.
it's like someone that is nice to talk to,
suddenly turned cold & turn out to be no more bonding between the both.
so it's like," oh, what a pity."

actually, maybe what i had just mention was just revolving about the magical word,

FATE!

& i've decided to get a 2B license.

i went over to ubi to enrol that friday.

but too many ppl! ARGH!

then, i gave up waiting.

so maybe going today or tml.

&& anyone know whether kovan can enrol as well?

cos kovan is nearer to my place.

the reason for getting a 2B license and not class 3 license is as follow;

1st: it's cheaper by ONE THOUSAND to get 2B than 3.

2nd: i want a vespa painted with HELLO KITTY paintwork.

3rd: a higher possibility to get a bike than a car.

4th: who says girl cant ride bike?!

5th: dont try to stop me! hahaha!

CRYSTAL RIDER!

2008-02-13T20:01:00.000-08:00

i'm down on luck recently.
very DOWN!
i got problems with FAMILY, FRIENDS and SCHOOL!

stupid life!
quarrels with everyone.
everything seems to be pissing me off.
ARGHH!

came school for commskill role play.
where we need to act out a meeting.
& i being the dummy SECRETARY!
i'm fine with ACTING secretary.
but the fact is i'm not going to be a SECRETARY in the future what.
so i went in to the classroom,
preparing for the meeting.
being a tech-idiot.
i dont know how to input the laptop to the screen.
i asked politely, " erm, do you know how to do this?"
then my teacher said," secretary should find out how to do this herself."
WTF!

it's ok. i continued.
then, after the role play.
she praises my group.
she says my group might score well.
BUT!
she says, " crystal, you're the weakest link of the group."
"you are not dress appropriately, & you didnt check the ppt slides."

i was in the verge of yelling out, " I"M NOT A SECRETARY IN REALITY, OR IN THE FUTURE!"

ok. but the cowardly crystal, just smiled.

hmm. everything is against me!
time to reflect.
i guess my presence anywhere is ought to bring troubles to everyone.
ARGHH!

i was reading the papers the other day.
it was reported that service line staff will get mental problem easily (or something like that.)
cos they need to fake a smile often.
therefore, you are suppressing your emotions & all.
OMG!
so one day you all might see me talking to myself,
or stabbing ppl with a knife out of nowhere.
COS I"M GOING CRAZY!
hahaha.

then, i remembered.
yesterday wilson was asking me something at work.
he said," ever since i know you, you seems so unhappy."
then i asked with a smile," where got? never ah."
then he said," there you see, your smile so fake."
before i could ask, a customer came asking for something.
then end of conservation.

he isnt the 1st to say i got fake smile.
aiyo! cos i went to make a mask from korea ma.
look so natural but fake at times.
latest technology.
hahaha! LAME~!

BADLUCK!

2008-02-11T19:21:00.000-08:00

went dinner with one of my colleagues last night.
SUKI SUSHI!
we ate 23 plates!
when the next table of 4, ate 19 plates.
LOL! we WON!

then, we talk talk talk.
we talk about BGR.
we talk about our family.
we talk about past, present, future.

sometimes when someone is very emo,
one just need someone's ears.

so using reverse psychology,
i said,
"your life really very poor thing,
so dont make it more miserable by keep thinking about it."
hahaha!

anyway, we talk talk talk till 1 plus.
& we realise it's late.
LOL!

sometimes i need someone who isn't in the picture.
isnt related to anything as far as things are concerned.
doesnt judge things by emotions.
someone good enough for me to pour my thoughts out,
so i could tidy them up. ((:

i notice the lacking of communication between we both.
messages doesnt come in that frequently.
even when we both are together,
we dont talk as much as before.
or has it been like that all along?

WORK WORK WORK later!

exams are coming very very soon.
& i haven been going for lectures plus tutorials!
OMG!
this year is lacking of discipline.
let's hope i'm not lazy for the study week.

2008-02-10T22:54:00.000-08:00

2nd day of chinese new year wasnt so bad.
went to my mummy's mother place. (my granny not my ahma.)
it was fun.
so many little cousins,
and little niece and nephew.
CUTE~!

played with them,
and we click pretty well.
they bullied me by stuffing all the foods to me.
i guess that the way they show love.
xp

& went cathay and watched KUNGFU dunk,
with bf, chunlian, chunlian's bf & chunlian's bf's friend.
nice and funny but lame show. LOL!

it's was my darling GIRLFRIEND's birthday!
HAPPY 9teen BIRTHDAY CHUNLIAN!!!!

went over her chalet the next day.
quite fun with all the crapping and stuff.
then, it was like everyone there were kind of linked.
there was:

CHUNLIAN - who is the host, which basically know everyone there.
MATTHIAS - who is chunlian's bf.
ME - who is chunlian's primary (JUNYUAN) school friend.
JIANHAI - who is my bf, plus from JUNYUAN as well.
LAM - who is matthias best friend, and my secondary (NANCHIAU) school senior.
KAIBOON - who is chunlian's secondary (NGEEAN) school mates, plus me & jianhai current school (TP) senior.
KEVIN - who is from TP, NGEEAN, and JUNYUAN, and is a great cook.

so it's like everyone know everyone kind of thing.
which came down to a conclusion : SINGAPORE IS VERY SMALL!

i've learnt new things this few days.
i think i'm ignorant.
my mind just move slower than ppl i guess.
like ppl would says, " you should know ... blah blah blah."
when generally ppl will says," ya, i KNOW!"
but i'll always says," should know WHAT?!"

haha. anyway, my point is : being stupid can mess things up!
i really dint mean it to mess thing up.
but with my slow moving braincells.
things just dint come to my knowledge that fast.
which makes ppl unhappy,
which makes me get scolding all of the time.
LOL!

plus, i dont think twice before i spit thing out.
so i will always end up, "opps! i shouldnt said that."
so my two bad points always get me into trouble.

so i think the best way to stop all these nonsense is :
STOP TALKING, AND SAVE ALL THE TROUBLE!

i shall not talk so much from today onwards. ((:

2008-02-07T01:41:00.000-08:00

my 1st day of new year was CRAP!
i think i kind of hate chinese new year.
(except for angbaos)
scolded from my ah ma this morning?!
HELLO! it's chinese new year ah ma!

ok. the story goes like that.
i went over to my ah ma's house this early afternoon.
they called it " BAI NIAN"
then, i was happily saying HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone.
then, i went to the kitchen waiting for mummy.
then, mummy came and start talking to my ah ma and auntie.
& i was waiting for my mummy.
i was waiting to help her take rice.
&& guess what?!
my ah ma said," you think you model ah?"
"need ppl to serve you is it?"
"just now your brother so GUAI, take the rice himself."
What THE *sensored*
i just felt like scolding vulgarity at that freaking moment.
& nobody there freaking understand how i felt!
ARGHH!
I HATE CHINESE NEW YEAR!

anyway it's just part of the many reasons why i hate CNY.

secondly, my dad dont talk to me.
this had been going on for months.
initially i was upset.
it's like your finger dont responds to your command in ur brain.
haha. bad description i guess.
but anyway, it's still the same.
i wasnt that sad nowadays.
but sometimes, when u're alone, you think of it and it makes you wanna cry.
hmm. why is it related to CNY?
cos you will need to talk to ur dad.
and when i did.
he dont responds.
he treat as thou i was transparent!
I HATE CHINESE NEW YEAR!

thirdly, i'm not close with any of my cousins.
so i'm always like the leftover,
the loner.
so i chose to be at home.
after eating, i'm back home facing the walls.
how cool right?!
haha.
I HATE CHINESE NEW YEAR!

i watched P.s i love you yesterday.
kind of disappointing.
the story was so nice,
yet the show wasnt.
hmm. i will recommend ppl to read the storybook.
& not watch the movie.

BORED!
totally no mood!

i still love him.

2008-02-03T08:17:00.000-08:00

i went prawning the other day.
with nini, raymond and lovelove.
it was at geylang.
got aircon somemore.
1st hour for 15 bucks,
2nd at 25 $,
& 3rd at 30 $.

so we 4 share 2 rods.
meaning 60 bucks for 4 of us.
& we prawned for 3 hours.

i caught 2 prawns!
HAPPY!
& because xiaojianjian is super no luck.
he caught nothing!
whahaha.
can see that he's pretty upset about catching nothing.

nini & raymond was super good at prawning can.
they caught 7 prawns.
& some were HUGE!
xp

prawning was FUN still.
&yummy! ((:

finally, projects are like coming to an end.
the hectic week was super scary.
the stress & things like that.
hmm. cant imagine myself facing more stress.
i might kill myself. LOL!

i can smell CHINESE NEW YEAR!
& the hongbaos!
& the fragrance of the new 2 ,5 and 10 dollar NOTES!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR in advance, everyone! ((:

angbao, angbao, angbao!

2008-01-29T08:59:00.000-08:00

i'm getting sick of my job.
arrival is BORING!
little flight, little customers, LITTLE MOTIVATION TO WORK!
haha!
but the thing about arrival is can slack.
can walk here and there.
can write alot of funny things in communication book.
but the other thing about arrival is have to worry about when you'll be caught slacking.
& walk here and there till leg hurts like crazy.
& communciation book becoming a drawing book.

LOL!

anyway, i went to school for project today.
projects are all due soon.
plus presentation!
everything is like so cramp together.
arghh!

i shall go do my project.
update next time. ((:

project TIME!

2008-01-26T21:36:00.000-08:00

it's SUNDAY!
but i've decided to stay at home.
why?!
1stly, cos i got CRM & HEP presentation to prepare.
2ndly, it's been real long since i stay at home.

hmm. i dont like ppl to doubt my ability.
although, i know it's hard not to do that.
cos my laziness never failed to stop me from proving people wrong.
and i've been doing extra work that is not needed at all.
for eg. fm, anp, and-the-list-still-goes-on projects.

aiya. i guess i'm not the wow-you're-so-efficient type of ppl.
but at least i did something.
so i decided to spent my entire day on PROJECTS!!!

projects!!!

2008-01-24T06:15:00.000-08:00

i did something really DUMB today!
not the DUMB as in cant talk.
is the DUMB as in the stupid DUMB DUMB!

plain stupidity!
ok. the story goes like that.
i was trying to play with xiaojianjian's N81.
so i open up the camera function.
took pictures while he was driving.

then, the story continues.
we stopped at a red light.
then i was still snapping away.
i tried to be funny and make all the ugly and funny faces.

then, one of the photo look damn scary.
with my blunging-out-eyes.
the lighting was greenish,
and i look damn white.

I TOTALLY FREAK OUT CAN!?!
i was yelling,
"DAMN SCARY DAMN SCARYYYYY!" in the car.
then, i quickly delete that photo!

then, the red light turned green,
so he start his car.
still traumatise by the stupid picture.
i nearly burst out in tears.

then, at the next redlight.
xiaojianjian took his phone and search for the picture.
then, he show me the phone.
(i really did delete the dumb photo)
then, i thought that ghostly picture still in his phone.
(but he's just trying to scare me)

my heart thump like crazy and nose turn sour.
but i dint cry still.
I"M A STRONG GIRL!

but thinking of the fact that i got freak out by my own face,
make me feel stupid.
i was thinking maybe it's trying to send some msg?
like dont do evil or stuff?!

OMG! god bless me please.
iloveeveryone and i do no harm.
please dont scare me like that.
i promise i'll be nice and kind to everyone.

ok. enough of my stupid encounter.

I REBONDED MY HAIR!
it look super flat.
and i haven wash my hair since yesterday.
hahaha. smell like rebonded hair.

& I WANT TO WATCH P.S I LOVE YOU MOVIE!
i want i want i want!! like immediately!

amidying?!

2008-01-21T06:42:00.000-08:00

CHOICES

from the tiny tweeny stuff like turn left or right.
to choosing the wrong or right.

major decision like living or dying.
setting priority,
or following the majority.

i kind of miss the childhood that i could just say "I WANT THIS!"
& burst out in tears if the little boy says that's HIS!

i kind of miss the me who could do everything without any fear.
& not the me who afraid of all the rumours heard.

my life is so messed UP!
people became so freak out!

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

ok. i'm emolization!
too stress with everything.
people!
school!
work!
time!
life!

whycanttherebejusthappyendings?!

2008-01-11T03:19:00.000-08:00

emo kid! xp
HAHAHA! this is super funny!!!

darling girl's BIRTHDAY!
the dumbdumb assignment i was talking about.
my lovely bed!
not bad yea?! i think i got talent.
IT'S NOT A BATHROOM!

it's a walk-in wardrobe!!!

hahaha.

to my darling stephhy,

hmm.

girl, you know i love you.

but the constant quarrelling between you both;

you know what i mean.

i wanted the genting kind of us.

the happy 3 of us.

i wanted to go out like 4 of us, you me him and him.

at least i've got you to talk to.

but you both are always quarrelling.

what can i do you tell me?

hmmm.

put yourself in my shoe,

if i'm always quarrelling with albert how will you feel?

i wanted to talk to you about this a lot of times.

but i dont know how to put across to you.

hmm.

& i nv dont want to go out with you.

but today on msn, youu sounded as if i dint want to.

you sounded abit sarcastic when you said, we're opposite.

& also the time, you told me i dont need a secretary.

you know the blur me always needed you.

please dont be offended by this.

i guess this might be the only way i can show you how i feel.

ilovetheyou that always talk to me when i needed you;

ilovetheyou who shop with me;

ilovetheyou who remind me what test, or work i have;

ilovetheyou who lovemetoo.

iloveyou really i do...

ok, this sounds abit wrong.

but you know what i mean. hahaha!

2008-01-10T17:52:00.000-08:00

it's been super long since i posted something.
haha.
i bet nobody reading this.
i'm lazy and busy with school and work.
tired!

anyway a lil update on my bangkok trip.
it was shopping shopping & lotsa SHOPPING!
fun & tiring too.
it's like having a battle with shopping.
we just shop till like no tomorrow.
super fun!
but no pictures thou.
something happen.
so no camera no pictures. ((:

school is tiring and stressful now.
considering the fact that i haven been really studying and attending lectures.
mid sem results was bad too.
i've got my 1st F for CRM!
& a D for A&P.
erm. see how bad it was.
& everything's so blurry~
everything's so mess up~

rush out my Human Environmental Plannning assignment 2 days ago.
it's like we need to do out a model of my bedroom by thursday.
& i got to know it only on tuesday.
which means i dont even got my materials.
and wednesday i'm suppose to work from 4-12am.
like super no time.
so i took mc on wednesday.
(i'm really down with flu thou, i nv fake. LOL)
& the queue in the polyclinic is so long.
so i left with only half a day for my model.
& mr lee xiaojianjian say he want help me to do the model.
but end up sleeping for 3 HOURS!
ok. but being a GENIUS!
my model look decent. xp
(at least look nicer than mr leexiaojianjian's model.)
I'm PROUD of my work. whahaha!
but thanks still for helping me. ((:

oh. i found out something interesting about myself.
i'll cry like crazy when i'm drunk.
which is so completely retarded & embarrassing!
imagine all your tears destroying ur make-up & making a scene outside the club?!
ok! i shall quit drinking. xp

i'm going for hair rebonding!
totally sick with my ugly hair
which require tying every single day to hide the uglyness.

iloveyouboth;
buti'malwayscaughtinthemiddle.

2007-12-17T06:21:00.000-08:00

warlords was a disappointing show!
OMG!
no nice no nice.

ok. i was wearing the super ugliest outfit to town, that night.
(that night i went to watch warlords)
i was wearing, baileys uniform.
which was sososoooo OUT-OF-THE-PLACE.
and guess what?

i saw the most no. of long-time-no-see ppl.
so all i could do was to shun here and there.
& please, let's hope nobody see me.

& i think i'm a super big DIRECTION-less idiot.
that day, i woke up late to go office.
hence, i tried to be smart alex.
i took train to harbourfront &
switch to bus thinking it will be faster to queensway.
(normally, i took train to queenstown & change.)

then, i saw the chart for bus writing to alexandra rd.
so being a complete idiot,
i hopped on without further confirming.
then, the bus was like going to raffles place, fullerton area.
so i thought it was wrong.
but still very confirm about seeing the chart on the bus writing alex rd.
i still sat in the bus.

then, after 1 hours plus of journey,
i end up back in harbourfront.
it's like the bus is on a loop journey.
then, i still stayed on the bus.
so it headed toward queensway.

then, i think i miss my stop.
(not the usual busstop which is near the office.)
so i end up at jurong!
so ended up being super duper late.

this teaches me a lesson,
"hiang diu ho, mai gei hiang!"

i'm so lacking of sleep!
i've got 2 hours of sleep before working morning in airport.
TORTUROUS can?!
& i've got a pile of envelopes which are in need of filling in the addresses,
left untouched! (for office)
i need to wake up early tml too.
KILL ME PLEASE.

i'm going to BANGKOK!!!
shoppingshopping!
((:

i'msupertired!

2007-12-13T18:31:00.000-08:00

i found out something that i shouldnt.
it's found out due to the kponess in me.
hence, it's pretty hard to hide.
u know,
it's like u shouldnt have known,
therefore, u have no right to be reacting to it.
& all the more, u shouldnt be angry about it.
& most of all, i have to continue pretending.
IT"S SO DAMN IRRITATING CAN?!

i'm starting to hate that particular person.
i bearly know the person,
yet the person is just so pissing me off.
SHOO u SHOOOOO!!!

enough said,
MID SEM TEST IS FINALLY OVER!
i guess i did real bad for the last 2 paper.
but according to msamylim,
tons of failures for A&P.
i guess i am one of those.
so conclusion is, no LADYLUCK this sem for me.
i hate to say, but i'm gonna to FAIL!

watched alvin & the CHIPMUNKS!
it's a CUTIE show.
aww. i wished i can have chipmunks as pets.
LOL!

found out that Good Luck Chuck is R21.
so sad!
i'm not eligable to watch.
haha.

i'mgivingyouthepenaltyofdoubt.

2007-12-12T02:26:00.000-08:00

paper today was a killer.
i should take back the so far so good thingy on my previous post.
anyway, LAST PAPER TML!
((: something that at least perk me up.

good luck chuck seems to be a nice show.
got pretty pretty jessica alba!
haha. shall catch it soon.

good moments doesnt last long.

2007-12-11T04:28:00.000-08:00

subway!

see the power of my hand!

my mouth bigger! LOL.
the famous XIAOJIANJIAN!this is DAJIANJIAN!
stephsteph with XIAOJIANJIAN!happy family.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

it's mid sem once again!!

which means TEST!

which means I HAVE TO STUDY!

2 papers over,

left with 2 more to go.

so far so good.

good as in can pass only.

i'm easily contented u know u know.
(it's not the sour-grapes feeling. xp)

i have the craving for SHAKERFRIES.

u know it's back to MCDONALDS.

*drool.

iknowyou'regood. ((:

2007-12-08T21:02:00.000-08:00

HITMAN is nicenice!

please go catch it.

hitman is so so cool.

aww. i think he's so cute & GORGEOUS!

i dreamt of alotalot of money last night.

haha.

the dream goes like that:

i found a stack of 50 dollars notes in my wallet.

den i was trying to figure out what to do with the money.

i decided to deposit some of them into my POSB & OCBC acc. respectively.

den spent all the rest.

den i woke up thinking i really got that much of money.

i went to check my wallet.

to my surprise!

there isnt any!!

LOL!

the dream is so so realistic i tell you.

it's those type of dream that u remember every detail of it.

a few days ago,

i accompanied xiaojianjian go jb pump petrol.

den we went the wrong way.

& i thought i'll forever be in jb.

(ok. i exaggerated.)

we were lost.

& we decided to follow a singapore car.

we thought they might be going back to the custom.

hahaha!!

but i think they thought we want to rob them.

so they stop at somewhere.

we wind down the window,

and they are still doubting to wind down not.

LOL

we got the direction from them.

den still got lost.

& anyway, we are safely back in SINGAPORE!

like phew!

PLUSH on deepavali!

unintentional coincidence! (we stuck out our tongue)

WINEGIRL & BAILEYS.
2 BAILEYS!
wendy & crystal.
my love! ((:
i managed to squeeze my mouth into the photo!!i managed to squeeze a tiny weeny face into the photo too!!
cropped head!
absolut, wine, baileys & malt reunited!
tzelip styling hair.

styled hair! LOL

random photos!

kbox.
me & the famous sillygreen.
geeks of 1st avenue.
twist! PEACE OUT!

2007-12-05T04:03:00.000-08:00

read something horrifying on the papers.
someone birdbird is cut,
and that someone is burnt to death.
hmmm.
scary huh?

imagine that someone was in so much pain before his death.
like so poor thing.
but the thing happened in KL.
so maybe singapore is still pretty safe?

worked at t2 yesterday.
it was fun working in bar.
we mixed baileys with icecream.
& oreo cookie!
& mix all 3 baileys flavor with icecream.
& baileys milkshake!
yumyumyum!!
hahaha.

we have to wear christmas hat,

( something like the pic on the right)
then a lil angmoh girl told her mummy.

"look look, she's a santa claus!"

aww. she's so cute can!!! LOL

today is phoebe's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
((:

so close,
still so far.

2007-12-03T04:38:00.000-08:00

CRYSTAL LOVE CHRISTMAS TREE!!
advertising for *BLINGBLING* toothpaste!
singapore next top model?! LOL!!

gucci!! LOL

QUIZ OF THE DAY!!!

guess how many packs of chilli sauce are there??

ANSWER: 18 packs consumed by 3 ppl!

i'm working back at airport!
tml will be my 1st day.
haha.

hopefully my boots dont hurts.

that's how she know!

2007-11-28T22:11:00.000-08:00

back at the school lab!
i'm fully utilising my school fees.
LOL.

today is a hectic day.
got 2 tests,
& stupid HUMAN ENVIRONMENT PLANNING journals,
are to be submitted today.
&& today we need to bring a fruit,
what we are doing with the fruit is not EAT!
is DRAW!
hmmm.

i got lots of fats building up in me!
fats that just wont go away.
so i've decided to go swimming soon.
haha. anyone want to join?

ok. running errands now.

ended. ((:

2007-11-27T22:21:00.000-08:00

INTERNET CONNECTION DOWN!!

ok. so my home com cant be used.
ARHGG!
super irritating.
cos i have to come to school to use the damn com ALONE!
on my lovely lesson-less WEDNESDAY.

& that should explained my absence in my blog.

i'm in school lab doing the stupid HUMAN ENVIRONMENT PLANNING journal.
like who writes journal for a subject!?
ME!
i'm writing.

BTW!
my teacher for this freaking subject is BAD.
she is so self centered!
so full of herself!
& UNREASONABLE!
ok! i dont want to elaborate on what she do.
but she is the WORST TEACHER i've ever met!
& MOST OF ALL, I SERIOUSLY HATE HER!

oh. my slipper is stolen a few weeks ago.
haha. i dont know who want to steal my pathetic slipper.
maybe there's a stalker that lives near me?
ok. i'm lame!

& ENCHANTED is a nice movie.
please go and watch!

((:

end.

2007-11-15T04:43:00.000-08:00

my blog is back to life due to POPULAR demand.

haha. (nini requested for it!)

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING CONTENT MAY CONTAIN ENDLESS RANTING. READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK.

ok. haven been blogging for long.

COS I'M PRACTICALLY TOO LAZY!

& schoolwork is very very alot ah.

online online online.

stupid online assignment.

last time go tutorial nv do tutorial still ok.

but now, no tutorial.

but got all the DUMB DUMB online assignment.

nv do, no marks!

hmm.

actually i'm suppose to like comm skill lesson one.

but because of PROBLEM-BASED LEARNING.

it's becoming boring & irritating.

cos whenever, u ask the teacher is this correct.

she will say," you must do research."

or " there isnt any right or wrong."

if that's the case, then you better dont fail me!

hahaha.

speaking of commskill,

i haven do my research!

i'm so not done with complaining!

& my stupid CDS!

she is soo soo irritating.

AARGH!
ok. she's going for holiday before our semester finish.

therefore, she want to take our SATURDAY!

originally, she is like saying have 4 hours in a week,

and 5hours in the following.

like crazy can.

3 hours tutorial is already killing me!

she is making her problem, our problem!!

ANGRY!

i mean other class dont even use the whole 3 hours.

but she is dragging every week tutorial to 3 hours can!!

STOP, SNAPPED!

ok. i'm done with RANTING!

dadada!

CHILLICRAB!

*drool.
yummy chillicrab!

someone tell me goldfish got 3 seconds memory!
means, they will forget everything in 3 seconds.
then, i kept thinking it's very GOOD!
cos every 3 seconds is brand new.
at least no unhappiness will last longer than 3 sec.

see, if i ate 3 seconds ago,
den i forget,
den i keep eating and eating how?
FATFAT!!

there's a movie on something like this.
think it's '50 first dates'
awww, ROMANTIC can. xp

you dont even know?
all i need is a little coaxing from you.

2007-11-08T01:15:00.000-08:00

tuesday, wednesday is practically a school-less day.
then, thursday is NI-PAPA-DA-NI. (deepavali)
the only thing is FRIDAY IS A SCHOOLING DAY!

so yesterday went movie with wendy.
watched THE SEEKER - the dark is rising.
i thought it was a nice show.
magical & certain parts make my heart pound like crazy.
LOL.

then shop around vivo,
eye-ed some clothes,
but i kept reminding myself,
i'm going bangkok.
CANT BUY CANT BUY!
arghh, hate it!
hahaha.

then, went eski bar.
have to finish the quarter bottle of not-nice-tasting whiskey.
gina & tzelip joined us.
sorry guys, dint know there was 2 eski.
sorry for the trouble. xp

then waited from stephhy , albert & sheila.
people says zouk is CROWDED!
so decided to go plush instead.
conclusion is ...
PLUSH = VELVET DRAGON = MOMO.
haha.

i thought the place is pretty big.
& the girl toilet is nicenice.
the toilet bowl blingbling one!!
haha.

oh, sorry stephhy.
make u bring the belt & i dint use.
sorrysorry.

will upload the photos when i get the photos!

maintaining relationship between ppls seems to get tougher and tougher.
what we should do,
not to do,
have to do,
not to do?
everyone have to look for the answers themselves.

2007-11-03T22:19:00.000-07:00

addicted to facebook!
now i know why ppl says facebook is fun.
but i think i wont be addicted for too long.
xp

it's sunday. ):
tml got school already. hmm.

but thursday is DEEPAVALI!
means public holiday!
(:

他和她的故事 - 萧亚轩

他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话

从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜

时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横

她开始悬著疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕

谁爱谁谁又流乾了眼泪
谁后悔难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎谁又该乾脆离开
谁爱谁谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔谁在忍受著孤独

谁了解他退出她孤独
谁了解谁退出谁孤独

爱得太盲目
谁不满足

i'm over reacting?
forgive & forget?

2007-11-03T09:42:00.000-07:00

DISAPPOINTED.

hmm.
what can i say?
we isnt made for each other?

totally lost.
you left me hanging.
all alone.
THERE.

how am i suppose to know,
when u dint even tell me?
i dint even remember that was the seats.

u dont even remember i'm half blind,
i've got night blindness.
penniless.
cant even go anywhere.

& all u did was to leave.

i was struggling to not go back to ur car,
but yet, i'm helpless.
without money,
cant even go home myself.

like a idiot,
walking and crying at the same time.
i'm useless, i know.
as if cry got help.

but all i could do was cry
and hoping for some kind soul to stop by
and lend me some money?

FREAK!

now, u just push all the blame on me.

hmmm.

forget it.
i dont want to think about it anymore.

utterly upset,
disappointed
& pissed!

2007-11-02T10:00:00.000-07:00

pek chek!
dont ask me why.

ok. now i'm in the foul mood condition.
AHHHH!!

& my flu is making it worse.
dont know where the bloodyflubug came from.
but it's making my nose drools like nobody business.
& PEK CHEK!!!

FREAK!

ihateCRM!

2007-11-01T06:39:00.000-07:00

Diageo berlini room NIGHT!

victoria & stephhy.
ilovestephhy so much till i hug her so tight!
stepphy & ghimbeng.that's how i look with ice in my MOUTH!

St james NIGHT OUT!

black is dancing to the bollywood music. HAHA

xiaojianjian!

they look cute in this yea?
sister borui!
borui & co.
my signature : TWIST!
pouts*
black hates green tea! HAHAHA
ah dai additional TWIST!
alicia & me.
me & stephhy!pretty alicia.
aww. xiaojianjian is camera SHY. xp

our black stocking!

HongKong CAFE

twist!yumyum!

off to school!!

i'm gonna be late!

2007-10-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

To my two love one,

(you both know who i'm referring to.
yes! is the both of YOU!)

i felt really bad.
it all started with my meaningless moodswing.
maybe communication dint really work for me.
cos by communicating,
i've made all these mess.
hmm.

i'm really sorry.

GUILTY!
the silence between the both of you.
we are not suppose to be like that.
the fun, and laughters from the past,
when can it be back again?
i dont want the awkwardness between the 3 of us!

u both know, ILOVEYOUBOTH!
can both of u dont be like that?
i promise, i will be good.
& show no moodswing.

hmm. i will keep everything to myself.
i just want us to be like before.

I'M SORRY!

please talk, will ya all?
)`:

2007-10-26T12:32:00.000-07:00

pissed!
i've just shown my meaningless moodswing.
and just spoilt everything.

angry at myself till tears dropped.
my too-active-braincells are just doing no help.
FREAK!

& i dint thought the thing between them can affect me that much.
i mean i'm not the selfish or petty type.
but i just cant stop myself from the thought,
'he isnt over her.'
& 'i'm just her substitute'

i know it's just my crazy brain,
being overly hyper active.

oh well. WHATEVER!

i'm sorry.
but u cant entirely blame me.

2007-10-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

changing cds again.
stupid cds so troublesome!
but i hope i wont have to get my last cds done at 4.1.
*cross my fingers.

To : Mr Boyfriend.

i know u will read.
so i purposely write give you see!

hahaha!

the purpose of today's hidden content is ...
boy, erm.
i'm perfectly alright with u fulfilling
whatever promises u've made before we both are together.
i mean this is a democratic society.

LOL.
no lah.
my point is i dont like empty promises myself.
so dont make u someone i dont like!
xp

but like what u said,
we need to give each other our own spaces.
so i wont stop u to u know u know.
haha.

but mutual respect k?
must inform me 1st lah.
dont later i find out.
den quarrel.
(:

ok lah.
that's all.
thanks for giving me to me,
by letting the relationship be in low profile.

loves!

lalala!

2007-10-24T05:48:00.000-07:00

What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what I do

Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts
Go sailing by
Phantom ships lost at sea
And one of them is mine

Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left
Of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name
For what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

THE GHOST OF YOU & ME - BBMAK

low profile please. ((:

2007-10-22T04:58:00.000-07:00

MY TIMETABLE SUCKS!!
angry.
spoilt my mood only.
arghhh.

went to add a cds today.
which is the 1st day of school!
added 20th century fashion.
but it spoilt my supposely-lovely-timetable.

tuesday lesson is suppose to end at 11am,
with 2 hours of lecture.
BUT!
because of the stupid cds.
i've got 4 hours of break after my lecture.
& 3 hours of tutorial!

kill me please!
so i think it's hard to see me in tuesday lecture.
ARGH!
my plan of being a GOOD STUDENT is ruined.

& the worst part is the donut lecturer.
she just give that too-bad-&-i-cant-be-bothered-anyway look.
MAKE ME ANGRY only!

ok. enough of my endless ranting.
it wont change my timetable anyway.

went sakae sushi for lunch.
my 1st time to sakae!
hahaha.
it's given to steph, xiaojianjian & albert.

went pennisular with steph & albert.
wanted to get skinnies there.
but the colours are too extreme.
nothing caught my eyes.

wanted to get donuts &
m)yphosis slippers.
but the stupid contact lens keep swimming in my eyes.

so i took 1 side out.
& due to the fact that i'm 50% blind.
i decided to leave for home early.

hahaha.
stephhy & albert super cute can.
they wanted to take bus back to tamp.
den we bid goodbye.
(cos i taking train)
den after a while the 2 appear.

they scare i'll bang into some walls of stuffs.
den accompany back to sk.
LOL.

thanks yea?
u both super cute lo!

THEFACTTHATWEARECLASSMATES,
&IDONTWANTTOHURTANYONE,
STOPUSFROMANYPROGRESSION.

UMIGHTBEAGOODSTUDENT.
BUTIAINTAGOODTEACHER,
TOTEACHYOUTHELESSONSOFBOYGIRLRELATIONSHIP.

IDONTWANTTOSCARREDYOU,
OREVENGIVEYOUPHOBIAOFTHIS
UNIQUEFEELING,HUMANSHAVEGOT.

SHOPPING!!

2007-10-17T23:08:00.000-07:00

crystal's emotions goes with the weather.
& in today case, ~~IT'S NO GOOD!~~

it's hard to put up the usual crystal's signature smile.

CRYSTAL NEED TO BE LEFT ALONE!

i'm envious.
about them.

2007-10-14T14:02:00.000-07:00

added a couple of new things in my wishlist.
why does it get longer & not any shorter?
hahaha!
money no enough.

anyway, work is terrible.
gotten scolding for the past few days.
which just seems so discouraging to work hard.
hmm.

2 more torturous days till my off days.
please, fast forward the time till my off days!

went supper with xiaojianjian just now.
slack at yishan dam.
hahaha!
as usual, we started tickle war.
this time plus biting!

dint know i bite till tat hard.
his hands got all the teeth marks!
opps.
i'm guilty thou.
cos i really dint expect it to be so bad.
SORRY YEA?

tuesday night will be going out with stephy & co.

wednesday, shopping with my bestie, lianlian!
LOL. long time never see her.

wednesday night clubbing with gina, stephhy & DFS colleagues.
GIRLS NIGHT OUT! PARTY!!

thursday off day!

friday & saturday ~~WORK~~.

sunday going fangfang's daughter man yue. ((:

that's my schedule of my last week of holidays!

happening yea?

off to bed.
((:

2007-10-13T22:34:00.000-07:00

WORK WORK WORK!

a few more weeks till school reopen.
i need to PLAY really HARD!!
lalala~

ok. this is a boring blogpost.
but who cares?
LOL.

out to work!

2007-10-11T09:02:00.000-07:00

now i believe in karma, in retribution.
why?
because they really do happen.

so i think i will do more good deeds.
like giving up seats for the needy,
donate money for the poor,
and be KIND!

so maybe i might strike 4D, toto.
(i dont buy them thou)

went shopping with nini & stephhy.
long time nv see nini!
haha. she slim down alot.
u're my role model! LOL.

bought a cardigan.
wanted to buy m)yphosis slipper.
but i think i should clear my debt 1st
and see how much i've left.

hmm.
i dont understand why people want to be sarcastic.
i mean if you dont like something,
just say it out straight,
or hold ur silence laa.
dont have to say something sarcastic to irritate
and spoil people day.
random.
dontunderstand.

kenneth ask me an intelligent question which make me look stupid.
he asked, " you know why those experts that research on babies are all old?"
den i replied," why?"
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
the answer he gave, " because they have to wait for the babies to grow up."
& i thought he's clever.
cos i nv thought of that.
HAHAHA!

bad karma,
treat me good,
and save urself from bad ~~KARMA~~,
~~RETRIBUTION~~!!

2007-10-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

thanks my lovely WENDY for my super belated birthday present!
love you so much.
but i quite paiseh. xp

dont feel like blogging. ended!

((:

nice song. please click and listen! xp

nan ren bu huai,
nu ren bu ai!

2007-10-08T13:58:00.000-07:00

i had my 1ST driving lesson from mr lee xiaojianjian!
there is more to come.
and he says he sit my car will get car sick.
~~BEGINNER~~ mah, what you expect. LOL.

now i understand why driving is tiring.
cos need to clutch in, clutch out.
my legs aching now. xp

maybe i should drive auto car.
hahaha.

& I WANT A MINICOOPER!

i'm going bangkok with my dearest stephhy!!
i'm looking forward for SHOPPING!
20-23 december.
aww. let time pass faster to december!

TELL ME WHERE IT HURTS - M.Y.M.P
Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feelin' this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make those tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling
Somebody, somebody,
somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
Give me a chance to put back all the pieces
Take your broken heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do

MINICOOPER!

2007-10-07T12:39:00.000-07:00

i read this from friendster bulletin board.
quite meaningful. ((:

Realize that the girl holding onto u is
perfect in her own special way.

The way she laughs.
The way she sleeps.
The way she loves you.
The way she tries to please you.

Always remember that.

She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her more.
For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her.

There might also be someone out there,
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.

Fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.
Understand that.

Ima gine this, guys.
When you are holding her today,
and you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another girl.
& then you run back to her.
& u do the same.

But you see love in her eyes.
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are goodlooking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you can have anything you want in a snap.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch,
every word you say,
everything you do.

Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.

For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.

cherish me, you, her!

2007-10-07T00:31:00.000-07:00

wanted to go eski bar tonight.
cold cold bar!
but it was cancelled.
hahaha.

i woke up super early today.
at about 7.30am.
to accompany my mummy & brothers for breakfast.
when was the last time we had breakfast together?
& we went all the way to tampines.
in case, u're wondering why.
it's because that's our old hometown.
& all of us like it there.
we want to shift back!!
but mummy says she need to pay for our current house till she is 65.
so no money to shift back. ):

i'm so BORED!!

disappointed.

2007-10-06T10:49:00.000-07:00

i've been crazy this few nights!!

hahaha.

it's alcohol, alcohol & more alcohols!!

binge drinking = FATS!

so ppl, i'm getting fatter and fatter.

dont get shock when u see me like a balloon back in school.

ok. work is becoming stress & pressurizing!

the environment turned hectic & political.

hmm.

everyone is fighting for SALES.

being promoters we dont have commission.

so are we suppose to pass everything to someone else?

yet, we are given target to hit.

so if we dont hit it.

the scolding is on us.

so it's like we're struck in the middle.

howhowhow?

wrong wrong wrong!

2007-10-03T22:34:00.000-07:00

i'm experiencing ~~hangover~~ now.
feel so much like vomitting.
yet nothing is coming out,
except lots of sour saliva.
hahaha!
sounds disgusting huh?

yesterday just wasnt my day.
been thinking about how poor i am.
cos i'm in debt.
& i quarrelled with mummy.
& xiaojianjian is angry at me & stephhy for being late.
& ppl telling ppl stuffs about me.
& which i dont recalled doing.
& i just had a bad day!

aiya. when one thing doesnt go right.
everything just dont go right.

so i kind of drank alot last night.
haha.
but i'm sorry for troubling you, stephhy.
& sorry albert, i lend ur stepphy for so long. xp

& i realise i'm still brooding about stuffs.
cos i just burst out crying last night.
which i seriously dont understand why.
LOL.
i aint that strong anyway?
or i aint moving on yet?
or maybe the damage is just too huge?

borui was drunk!
haha. this one i still remember.
he's lying on the table.
& i kept asking how is he.
but he nv answer me.

& i realised nobody listens to what a drunkard is saying.
ok. i wasnt that drunk.
but i just kept talking about nonsense.
& nobody is listening!! hahaha.

i wanted to wait for the 1st bus home.
cos i'm penniless yesterday.
but being in a state of drunkardness.
i guess nobody will leave me alone.

xiaojianjian is kind enough to drive me home.
haha.
he wasnt feeling well,
yet still took the trouble to drive me home.
THANK YOU!

OK. I'M SERIOUSLY SORRY FOR TROUBLING EVERYONE!
& I'M SINCERELY THANK YOU ALL FOR TAKING THE TROUBLE.
((:

i'm eating apples for all my meals.
slim down!

2007-10-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

ok. now then i realise,
realise that guys like to gossip more than ladies.
& their gossiping can cause more damage.
BUT WHATEVER.
i'm not gonna give a damn to what is said about me that's isnt true.
i mean some people dont even know who i'm,
& jump in conclusion about who i'll be?!
i shant be brooding or affected by such stuff.

i've finally have my off days!
after 5 super tiring days.
like ~~FINALLY~~?!

i'm so so broke.
simply no money.
why isnt my pay here yet?
I NEED IT FOR SURVIVAL!
haha.

dont assume you know who i'm.

2007-09-30T21:47:00.000-07:00

haha. i took so long to upload this photos. & i haven finish uploading everything to my blog too. i'm too busy with work laaa! tiring. i'll be working for 5 days straight u know u know. so please understand, thank you very much!! xp

see the ice cream?? it's very very yummy. btw, all this photos is taken from genting. haha. so the ice cream is also from genting. yum yum yum!! this remind me of ICECREAMCHEF. who's bringing me there?

we're on the way back to singapore! oh ya, we dint get to play the amusement park. ): disappointment can. but nvm, i still enjoyed myself. & ppl, see the person in green&brown stripes? he's responsible for the bruises. haha. because of some tickle war in our hotel room, i've got ALOT of bruises. & stepphy usually just be the innocent party and see us fight. but she helped me too. help me scare xiaojianjian till he bang his head into the wall!!!! WHAHAHAHA! super funny.

cam whoring on the coach. LOL.

&& ...

... prepare for ...

... the UGLIEST PHOTOS i ever taken!!

TADAH!!!

LOL. cant help but LAUGH at these photos! & the funniest part is kejia & bf dont know we taking photo infront. && the auntie expression. funny funny funny!!

workworkwork!
i'm slogging hard for money.
might be going bangkok with stephhy, her mummy & didi.
so WORKHARD!

tiring. i've been standing for 3 days already.
8 hours per day.
& still 2 more days to go!
5 days straight on heels can kill.

WEDNESDAY
we're going st james.
haha. anyone want go?
the more the merrier.

opps. time for WORK!

((:

i dint see it coming,
i dint remember,
i dint, i dint, i dint.

2007-09-26T09:29:00.000-07:00

fish&co!

had baileys' meeting today.
at fish&co. airport.
yummy food!
the best part is it's ~~FREE~~!!

anyone going oversea?!
can help me buy baileys on the way back?
pretty please. -pouts.

anyway, i dint feel like going home early.
dint even felt like going home.
not that i hated being at home.
but i just that tonight dint want to be home tat early.

so after training which was until 4 plus.
i stay at airport with jewls.
we chatted, talked till 6 plus.

den went to geylang serai.
i was like mountain turtle.
wow here and there.
cos i dint went there once in my 18 years of being a singaporean.

den down to town to look for stephhy, albert and jermine.
hk cafe & i had my FRENCH TOAST.
sticky peanut butter,
it felt like i'm eating glue while i'm chewing.
LOL.
but it's still yummy.

den home-ed.

it's still quite early thou.
once again, alone at home!

i just went to search for SIA air stewardess stuff.
& i found:

Singapore Airlines Scholarships
Fly high with a scholarship that's in a class of its own
We are looking for outstanding individuals to continue building Singapore Airlines as an outstanding airline. Upon graduation, you will be given opportunities to develop all-round management skills or specialise in your area of choice. If you can fly high, you will have great prospects. Singapore Airlines scholars now hold important and challenging jobs in the parent company or its subsidiaries, in Singapore and overseas, some at Vice President, Senior Vice President and Chief Executive Officer level.Singapore Airlines invites applications from Singapore citizens and Permanent Residents who are beginning their University undergraduate education in 2007, or in the case of those serving National Service, in 2008 and 2009. Those already in a University may also apply.
Where tenable:
NUS, NTU, SMU, top universities overseas.
Requirements:
Applicants must have strong academic records in Secondary School and Junior College or Polytechnic, and strong leadership qualities as demonstrated in CCA and National Service (if applicable).
Bond:
Upon completion of studies, scholars are required to serve a bond of 4 years.
Value of Awards:
Local: Tuition and hostel fees, a one-off computer allowance, maintenance allowance, plus an annual trip to any point on Singapore Airlines' global network.Overseas: Tuition and other compulsory fees, monthly maintenance allowance, one-off clothing and computer allowances, annual book allowance, air passage at beginning and end of course, plus an annual trip on Singapore Airlines' services. In addition, Singapore Airlines will reimbuse fees for university applications and entrance tests. Both: Vacation courses at Singapore Airlines' Corporate Learning Centre, and attachment to a Singapore Airlines office.
Application:
The scholarship exercise is now closed. The next scholarship exercise will begin in early 2008.
Closing Date:
Two weeks after the release of the Singapore Cambridge GCE A-level results.

SCHOLARSHIPS!

I WANT TO BE AIR STEWARDESS!!

jenny, what's the problem?

2007-09-25T03:22:00.000-07:00

我为什么还爱你 - mi lu bing

一天过一天明天再见
这是你每次说的一直都没有改变
你的无奈我知道你的心已不在
放开这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

一天过一天明天再见
这是你每次说的一直都没有改变
你的无奈我知道你的心已不在
放开这是最好的决定

你的爱已不在我为什么还在这发呆

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你 (想着你)
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心把我丢在这里
我为什么还爱你为什么还想着你
不是我不放弃
是什么原因你狠心丢我在这里

this song is super meaningful.
nicenicenice!
track 5.

i've been rotting at home for 2 days.
rot rot rot.

sometimes it's still not so cool to be alone.

2007-09-23T10:35:00.000-07:00

complicated.

today is 24/9/2007.
the 1st day of the libra horoscope.
& 2 ppl whom i know, is born today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ((:

i long for a shoulder to lean,
a hand to hold,
but not a chain to pull me down.

2007-09-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

a little preview.

still got loads of photos to be uploaded.

((:

(if cant see please go this link : http://www.rockyou.com/show_my_gallery.php?source=ppsl&instanceid=84893734 )

2007-09-19T10:57:00.000-07:00

back from my lovely holidays.
back from genting!!

tadah!
i bet you all miss me loads.
xp

wait for stephsteph to send me the photos.
then, i shall have a detailed report on my genting holidays.
pictures tell a thousand words yea.
STEPHSTEPH, PHOTOS PLEASE?
thanks my dear.

lots of funny stuffs happened.
so please look forward for the next blogpost!
happy waiting, people!

the world is really super small. hmm.

2007-09-13T05:54:00.000-07:00

chalet ended.
only a few of the class came.
hmm.

YESTERDAY went pubbing.
with stephsteph, keyes & kenzo.
albert & black came too.

supper at hongkong cafe.
xiaojianjian came too.
yummy yummy french toast.
*drool

xiaojianjian send me & keyes back.
haha. thanks.
btw, i'm not drunk, mr xiaojianjian!!

TODAY went to office work.
dint remember.
and was late for 2 hours.
opps.

home-ed
& brought diamond down for a walk.
long long time since i brought her for a walk.
still as ganchiong as ever.

TOMORROW work at airport.
till sunday.
my legs breaking soon.

MONDAY gone to genting.
dont miss me guys!

random:
#1: it just cant be helped.
#2: someone told me girls will changed after being in a relationship. why?
#3: there is some sarcasam.

nice nice song.

2007-09-09T23:08:00.000-07:00

shitshitshit.
i'm super poor.
and in debt.
now i understand the helplessness of adult!
FREAK!

PICTURES TIME!

cam-whoring in MOS toilet!

the lightings is goodgood.

ivan; xiaojianjian; stephsteph; me; keyes
the day at M.O.S it's me & darlingstephsteph AGAIN!
& AGAIN!

seductive pose. LOL. stephhy & ivan's big mouth!
at zoukzouk.

going 1ro3 chalet!

gone for 3 days. (:

2007-09-08T22:14:00.000-07:00

thewords;

open up the book with hidden chapters.

I JUST MISS YOU!

ok. i'm lazy to blog.

too tired from constant standing.

my legs hurt till i cant blog.

LOL.